A day in the life
the unworthy men in my life!
Im sooo fucking sick of my dad. Whenever he talks to me Im
worried about what hes going to say... Hes such a bastard.
There is always something to bitch at me about. Thats why I
try to stay as busy as possible. Today he was bitching at
me because my room isnt clean. IF i want my room to be
clean i will clean it . As it is i dont have time to even
sleep!! I really cant take him, Paul called me... my dad
and his nosey ass; "who is that, how old is he, etc., He
acts as though i go around handing out my phone number to
random people. Does he think i dont have any sense at all.
I really wish i had gone on this date with Paul.. Fuck Im
such a jurk. I declined his invitation. I guess i didnt
want to lead him on. I dont know what to do about it,
apparently he has an obcession with me. Why does this
happen, ive never even really talked to him, i have but i
havent. Nothing that could really gain any knowledge of
eachother. I dont know what else there is that he can
possible be attracted to ... god, i think he has this
preceived notion of what i am and hes just going to be
disappointed when he finds out how wierd i am. Paul is
a really good guy, i dont want to hurt his feelings. Its
better to let him down now rather than when Im really in