Hee-Chan

A Place in the Dirt
2003-02-04 03:53:09 (UTC)

New Placebo

Wow...been a while since my last entry...

So much has happened!

First of all, I moved. I'm so happy to still have the
internet...that would have kill me if not...whew.

Had lots of work for school. Went to Yanick friday. It took
two hours to write...four lines! Ha lala...we argued on
EVERYTHING! And we laughed so much. I didn't know he had
done so many stupid things when he got drunk...such as
ringing every door at three in the morning and staying in
the middle of the street so everybody could see who the
fuck was ringing their bell in the middle of the night! My
god...hahahaha. Really...that's so stupid! I came to know
him in a different light, and he's really nice. He's honest
and that makes him a very precious person. We talked a
lot...on his life...his crush...and mine too..though
less...since I do not really open easily. And we talked in
english most of the evening...since he wants to improve and
I said I would help. I love to speak english, each time I
get to, I love it!

Got yeild at tonight...for speaking english. My parents
make a big deal about it. They say I have to speak french
and bla bla bla...quebeckers...PROUD quebeckers. What is
the problem about me speaking english? It comes easily in
english...when I get emotional and everything...I just
can't speak french. I don't know why...it sort of hurts me
in a strange way. I don't know how to describe it. And my
parents don't want to understand. No one else really cares
about it. They usually say it makes them practise...or they
say nothing and just hold me after. I mean...they know.
They don't ask why, they don't need to. They just
understand. But my parents just won't. And that hurts. I
try really hard to make them proud and everything I seem to
do is only shit to their eyes. I got really frustrated
tonight and said that no I did not considered them as
parents but just the ones who put me in this shitty thing
they call life. I said pretty harsh things. I don't think
they deserved it, they are trying their best afterall to
help me...but it just doesn't work...

On a more happy tone...I will see my boy on the fourteenth!
YAY! I miss him so much...just his smile...or being in
silence near him...I miss his very presence near me. I love
him...I love him so much! I'm happy beyond words. Really
happy.

Listened to the lastest Placebo song!!! GAAAAAAAA...SO
GOOD! Will talk about it later...mom's yelling me to get
off the computer...

See you!




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