Eyes4Guys

Personal hell & back again
2003-02-03 18:27:27 (UTC)

One of those profiles

I got this from laurenalexis's diary.

My Father thinks I am: Not coming by the house often enough
My Mother thinks I am: Immature, irresponsible, messy but
am in love.
My sister thinks I am: I don't know my half sisters very
well
My brother thinks I am: Ron thinks I am a bitch and Andrew
thinks that I am finally getting my life together.
My grandma thinks I am: Never knew her
My Grandpa thinks I am: Never knew him
My Girlfriend/Boyfriend thinks I am: Well, he's my best
friend, but he thinks I am the most wonderful person who he
wants to marry and wishes he could be closer to (location-
wise)
My best friend thinks I am: I don't know, she's too busy
with her boyfriend to remember me.

your three best qualities = I can make most people like me
(I am open with the word "like"-whether I want them to or
not), I am a good listener who can give decent advice and I
am passionate about what I do
three worst qualities = procrastinator, messy and
judgemental
three things you are often complimented for = My
appearance, my personality and my "street intelligence"
a compliment you got that made you blush = "You are the
prettiest drive-thru girl I've ever seen in my entire life"
you get embarrassed when = People talk about my lack of an
ass
what makes you happy = Chris, writing in my diary,
shopping (when I have money to spare) spending time with
Nessa and Steph when they aren't busy with their
boyfriends, being around my manager
upsets you = When people take my flirting too far, when
customers try to get into my business, when my Mom doesn't
understand me, thinking of how long Chris will be gone for,
fate (if there is such a thing) and being ignored

Yes or NO....
you keep a diary = Only an online one
you like to cook = No, I can't cook
you have a secret you have not shared with anyone = No
you fold your underwear = No
you talk in your sleep = Half the time
you set your watch a few minutes ahead = Yes, half an hour
ahead
you bite your fingernails = Trying to quit that habit
you believe in love= I always did

last...
x. movie you rented = Enough
x. movie you bought = Um...that was years ago..The Craft?
x. song you listened to = I See Right Through To You- DJ
Encore ft. Engelica
x. song you've downloaded = Take Me Away-Lifehouse
x. CD you bought = The Used-Self Titled Deput
x. CD you listened to = Finch
x. person you've called = Steph
x. person that's called you = My mom
x. TV show you've watched = Real Sex
x. person you were thinking of = Chris

Do..
x. you wish you could live somewhere else = In Colorado
Springs with Chris
x. you think about suicide = I did
x. you believe in online dating = No
x. others find you attractive = I'd hope so (Chris), but
yes I get lonely drunk guys in drive-thru that think so
x. you want more piercings = Yes, one exotic and then the
traigus
x. you want more tattoos = No, it hurt the first time
x. you smoke = sometimes
x. you like cleaning = No
x. you like roller coasters = Yes, although I'm scared of
heights
x. you write in cursive or print = print
x. you carry a donor card = My license has it on there

have you...
x. ever cried over a boy/girl = Who hasn't?
x. ever lied to someone = yes
x. ever been in a fist fight = I was ganged up on when I
was a kid and got my ass kicked behind my house
x. ever been arrested = Yes, shoplifting

What...
x. shampoo do you use = The scented VO5's
x. perfume do you use = They are usually Victoria Secret
body sprays, Calgon sprays, and then a milk and honey body
spray
x. shoes do you wear = Work shoes usually, or my adidas
sneakers
x. are you scared of = Needles, heights, heartbreak, losing
people


Number...
x. of times I have been in love? Once, and hopefully only
once
x. of times I have had my heart broken? Once
x. of hearts I have broken? One, but he's still here for me
x. of boys I have kissed? 19, but two were gay men
x. of girls i have kissed? 5
x. of people I consider my enemies? Shannon and I guess
Abbey
x. of CDs' that I own? 70 something
x. of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? None
x. of things in my past that I regret? 3 or 4 things

[my name is]: Cass
[in the morning i am]: horny
[all i need is]: companionship (love and friendship wise)
[love is]: Something I have
[if i could see one person right now]: Chris
[im afraid of]: Losing him

-H A V E .Y O U. E V E R . .
[been in love]: yes
[cried when someone died]: I didn't know the person at the
wake though
[lied]: yes

-W H I C H . I S . B E T T E R-
[coke or pepsi]: I don't like either
[flowers or candy]: Candy
[tall or short]: I am 5'9, so I would like taller than me

-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-
[what do u notice first?]: height
[last person u slow danced with]: Chris
[worst question to ask]: What are you thinking?

-D O. Y O U .E V E R-
[sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to
I.M. u?]: Yes
[save aol/aim conversations]: Only if they are important to
me
[wish u were a member of the opposite sex]: Only when I'm
menstrating
[cried because of someone saying something to u]: yes

-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
[fallen for ur best friend]: Yes, I am dating my best
friend for two years
[been rejected]: yes
[rejected someone]: yes
[used someone]: Sorta, but not really. I have been used
before though
[been cheated on]: No
[done something u regret]: plenty

-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-
[u talked to on the phone]: Nessa
[hugged]: Nessa
[u instant messaged]: Chris
[u laughed with]: Bill and Jackie

-D O .Y O U-
[color ur hair]: I did, I've taken a break so I can grow
out my natural color and perm it
[ever get off the damn computer]: yes
[habla espanol]: A few phrases, I wish I knew

-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-
[smoke cigarettes]: I do sometimes
[obsessive]: Not really
[could u live without the computer?]: No, it is the only
way I can talk to Chris
[how many peeps are on ur buddylist?]: 16
[what's your favorite food?]: 7 layer dip, hot wings, clam
chowder and nutella
[whats ur favorite fruit?]: mango
[drink alchohol?]: yes
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: when I can see it
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?]:
emotional pain
[trust others way too easily?]: yes

-N U M B E R-
of continents i have lived in? : 2
of drugs taken illegally? : 2
of scars on my body? : a bunch, most were from cats
of things in my past that i regret?: a few

I KNOW: how I work
I WANT: to be more
I HAVE: myself and an apartment
I WISH: I could live my life with Chris
I HATE: idiots
I MISS: Being overly optimistic
I FEAR: that I won't to anything or that I'm not what
people think I am
I HEAR: Myself planning
I SEARCH: for self confort
I WONDER: Is there a purpose for everything
I LOVE: getting what I want
I ACHE: in my heart
I CARE: for my friends
I ALWAYS: wish to be happy with just me
I AM NOT: confident enough
I DANCE: hardly ever
I SING: when I hear a song I love
I CRY: almost every night from memories or just nice things
people say to me
I DO NOT ALWAYS: say what I am thinking
I FIGHT: when I have no choice
I WRITE: when I have things on my mind
I CONFUSE: people with my logic
I LISTEN: when someone needs advice
I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: by myself, wishing for the future
to come.




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