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Katie's Journal
2003-02-03 07:16:47 (UTC)

One Last Thing

Ok, I know I said there wouldn't be anymore tonight, but
I've got a lot to say.

Whenever I talk to Josh now I can't help but act like a
total idiot. I try to evoke some kind of emotional
response from him that could possibly make me believe that
he has some of the same feelings for me, but I think I
only succeed in freaking him out. I don't really want him
to know how I feel just yet because I'm not sure how he'd
react and I don't want to mess anything up. For now I'm
just trying to play it cool, but I'm obviously not very
good at being cool.

Maybe it's just that now I'm more aware of things I say to him and I
overreact to everything
he does in response. On the positive side, usually I'm
the one who waits online for no other reason than to talk
to him until he has to go and this time he waited talked
to me until I said I was going to bed and as soon as I put
up an away message he signed off, leading me believe that
he only stayed on to talk to me. Yay! Then again, I
could just be over analyzing this. That's probably the
most logical solution...

Ok. That's really it for tonight. I promise. No more.
*Katie*




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