~*-JustMe-*~

Oblivion
2003-02-02 22:35:47 (UTC)

Ouch

Well, I have been in so much pain lately, but it really
doesn't matter because February is finally here!! It is
less than a month until Jeff gets here for good- and omg,
nothing has ever made me happier. As strange as it is, I'm
glad that I still have another month to wait. It's like..
I dunno what it's like, but it's like something that hurts
and feels good at the same time. Cause I know that no
matter how bad it hurts right now, it's going to feel so
much better in a month- and then, it's going to be worth
all of this pain. I'm going to have to see him and be with
him and hug him again, and then he's going to have to get
in his car and drive away again. Dealing with that, and
having to watch him drive away, and getting through the
week and a half after that will be the most bittersweet
experience of my life. Once the 27th rolls around tho,
none of the pain will matter anymore.

Hmm, what else, what else.. My neck and back have been
hurting really bad lately. I don't know why, but I will
get a really bad headache and once my entire head hurts, my
neck will start hurting too. It's spread to my shoulder
now too, and that's aching, which is really starting to get
on my nerves. Mom's all worried about me- going to make me
go to the doctor tomorrow. She keeps saying things
like, "I hope you don't have meningitis".. My friend Ryan
got meningitis or encephalitis last year (the ambulance
came and got him at prom- we spent the rest of the night-
me and two other girls- running around the emergency room
in prom dresses. They thought he was going to die..It was
so very scary. Was my first time back in a hospital since
daddy died.) and so now mom worries about that all the
time. I don't know why my head and neck hurts, but I know
it's not because I have a disease, and I'm not going to go
see the doctor. What would be the point in that?

I really should go work on my homework, but I really don't
want to. I have a good bit of stuff to do, but don't feel
like it. I'm developing SeniorItis.. Once I get these two
projects over with, I'm not volunteering for any more
leadership positions. Nope, nope, nope!

Hmm.. Anything else? I'm not pregnant! Woohoo! lol, not
that anyone knew I thought I was other than Katie and Jeff,
but still.. I was relieved to discover that. You never
notice how expensive pregnancy tests are until you go to
buy one- wowsers.

Well, I think that's it.. I know I should go lay down, but
I really don't want to. Maybe I'll write in my diary or
read Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead some more.. Or
maybe I'll play EQ, lol. I dunno, I'm going to go do
something. Will write more some other time.
Tiffany




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