dirtymagic

If Auntie were still alive, she..

If Auntie were still alive, she would be very disappointed
in me. But then, if she were still alive, would I be doing
all the things I am doing? If I had Auntie to run to when
life got tough, would I be drinking? smoking? getting high?
fooling around? sneaking out? Would I cut myself or get
violent urges, or plan elaborate suicides and killing
sprees? Would I be as fucked up as I am today? Why did she
have to leave me? ...I hate life without her.