RubyRain719

thoughts of darkness
2003-01-31 22:34:56 (UTC)

Ahh another day

I've discovered that I hate Fridays. Normally everyone
looks forward to them because they are the last day of the
week but I dread Friday. Yes I look forward to Saturday
just like everyone else but Friday is so miserable for me.
Fridays go by slower for me. I feel like I'm being tortured
until the end of the day. Then its always a relief when the
day is finally over. I can't wait until Saturday!

Last night I let Joe have the link to see what I had
written and I found that it actually helped things. I never
tell people what I'm thinking since it usually doesn't turn
out well but apparently this time it has actually helped
relieve some unneed pressure in my life. YAY!

This day has been really strange from the very start. I was
still awake around one or so talking to Josh and doing a
lot of thinking. I couldn't help but wonder where I'd be
right now if he wasn't in my life. He's helped me through
so much and I'll always love him for that. I honestly
believe that he has moments where he is to good to people
though. There are so many people that walk all over him and
its such a sad thing to see, when I just want to see him
happy. He deserves it after going through so much and still
being the person that he is. I can't really imagine my life
without him. On top of that I don't want to. He couldn't be
any closer to me unless he really were my blood brother.
I'll always consider him to be just that though. I'd do
just about anything for him just like I would Crispy and
Dane. They're all very close to my heart and I hope that
each of them finds happiness, although I'm fairly sure Dane
and Crispy are well on their way.

Ah yes Dane and Crispy, they aren't exactly a couple that
you'd expect unless you know them both really well. I
honestly hope that they find happiness together because I
can't think of a more perfect couple. I can't help but
smile whenever she talks about him since you can tell how
happy she is and really the same goes for him. Hell their
both a bunch of smiles once you put them in the same room.
Its cute. I know neither of them can wait until she gets to
be here next month. I can't wait either. I miss Crispy sooo
much and I do miss Dane since I never see him anymore since
the weather is so bad. Wow I'm really tired so I think I'm
going to stop writing for now, maybe I'll write more later
maybe not.




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