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talk about overkill
2003-01-31 20:24:19 (UTC)

to: asparagus

you can view these entries by the normal way, and then just
log in as me, click "lookup" and click on the "to daniela"
entry and click edit...we'll just keep this ongoing, you
know?
anywayz, ya, i lost email because of the whole detention
thing...but i got it back because my mom stood up for me
and ya, i am an ugly fat roadblock...read the previous
entry...wow i guess i write quite a bit in this thing
but anywayz, ya...wow likes another girl?!?!
seriously??
and what about sor? does he?? cuz if he does...*grrr*
and ya dont mention the real names in this thing...privacy
reasons......lol....like what you emailed me with the "i
luv blank blankity-blank" thing...ya know?
reasons
no, i should kill myself...cuz after all if i have this
temptation and the knowledge that i CAN do that, then why
keep this up, right?
anywayz, i'm off...ttyl...*sighs heavily* off to take my
geometry test...fun fun fun

** omg, i jsut wrote a huge thing, and then i pressed enter or
summing and it went bye bye. Great, just great. So I'll write it
again.
I knew it would happen.
Because it happened to me. I tried it once, just to see if I could.
It turned out that I could, and I did. I jumped at very noise,
fearing that I'd be caught, knowing i would. But i wasn't, and I felt
even worse, guiltier. And I knew that if I couldn't fight the
temptation then neither could u. SO i decided not to tell u, to try
to put it off as long as possible, hoping it wouldn't happend.
But i knew it would. It's like knowing u can ___ ________. It's not
hard to do it, and once you've done it, u just keep doing it, because
u know u can and u like that.
but the way i see it, it makes the enamel on ur teeth go away giving
u ugly teeth adn it bloats up ur face making ur face all big. It's
not worth it.
but i know what its like
You try it, u like it, u keep doing it, u get addicted, u get caught.
It's a circle of life.
but please dont do it again. Because u not an ugly roadblock, and u
shouldn't kill urself, and.. yeah.
No, wow doesn't like another girl. Or at least not that I know of,
it's just that megan did those fortune telling cards and they said
that i like him but he likes some other girl.. i dont believe all
that crap, but still.. its not fair. and sor.. i havent seen him in
forever, i have no idea (No Tengo ni idea! studying for span at the
same time oh ya!). i dunno if he likes osmeone or what, i never see
him anymore. of course i wont mention the real names, that could ruin
us big time. lol.. but yeah.
but my personal opinion is this: throwing up ur food is not worth it.
I don't want u to do anything bad, but, truthfully, i think not
eating is much safer and more healthy. please...
-celery

celery,
oh my god...why? when? how cum you didn't tell me?
i've decided one thing...that if i do it again, i wont tell anyone,
because it's just not worth it...its not worth the pain you bring
upon other people, its more worth it to just keep it to
yourself..."keep it secret, keep it safe"
why is it that everything i do i get "addicted" to...when i dont
really...i just-- i like it so i keep doing it..isn't that the way
life is? when you like something you keep doing it...calling for
example...you like it so you keep doing it...the other...you like,
you do. computer...you like, you do
that's the way it is
why wont people accept that?
well...i've said enough...
*sighs*
i dont think i've ever hated myself more

***asparagus,
it was realy nothing. But if u do it again, u have to tell me,
because the pain it brings me is worth it for the pain u have to
endure... and anyways, its not pain i cant handle. u have to tell if
u do something bad... "its not good to keep things bottled up" omg..
im turning into a friggin psychiatrist.. lol.
addiction.. i think it may not be addiction as much as obsession,
because its not just u... i get "addicted" to things all the time,
but it'd not really addicted, because if u really decide to, u can
stop it.. its not like smoking where ur body goes all whack if u try
to stop.. just my little insight on it..
i think u know why ppl won't accept summing like calling.. its
just... u know? anyways... dont hate urself, ur awesome, and ur not
ugly or anything, and ur not the only one without a bf... i gotta
go.. ill talk to u tomorrow, k? luv ya, celery

**celery,
when, though? and why didn't you tell me? was it last year? this
summer? last week? i feel horrible...
ya well i keep most things bottled up and its not as bad as you'd
think...cuz after all, i always have that stupid computer document
who will listen
addiction...addiction...what is there to say about addiction? i
obsess over things, i get addicted to things, and it's the pattern of
my life...i dont know though, it seems as if my body HAS gone whack
without it..and you know what i'm saying...
calling..why wont ppl accept calling? this world accepts
gayness, "lesbianism", drugs, smoking...look at aa for crying out
loud...why cant there be a "vegetable" club? a caller's anon? those
bastards out there dont know what its like, so they treat us
differently because they think we're too sensitive to know the
truth...
well dammit i'm not
ok i'm off to write 2 other entries...two different entries...maybe 3
ttyl

****Asparagus,
i dunno when it was... a few months ago... november. dont feel
horrible, im the one who should feel horrible. But, about ur other
entry... whats the accusation thingy? mind explaining it cuz im lost?
i dont like it when u keep things bottled up, cuz then i dont know
anything..
addiction.. yeah, like ur body tingles at the idea of doing it... and
if u dont then its like... blech, right?
well... society does ACCEPT stuff like lesbianism, drugs, smoking,
alcohol, but only to a point.. most people don't agree with it, they
think its wrong, gross, whatever.. same with calling... its
a "privilege" people shouldnt have i guess...
too sensitive.. heh...
anyways, ill call u later tonight? im so so tired...
speaking of which, anyone see the star newspaper? the article on the
quad? if u look on the left side of that one pic.. thats me.. lol.

**celery**
i'm sorry...you should have told me....dont feel horrible cuz i
should....
the accusation...think...about this whole thing with...you
know...they dont really have nicknames...oh yes they do! i think
it's like "Carrot" or "Lettuce" or something...ya carrot and lettuce
i think
addiction is an interesting thing
some people dont agree with it, but they accept it...so why dont they
accept calling? they immediately stick us in a looney bin or
something....but not lesbians or anything...
sorry i didn't call last night...i got in a huge fight again...story
of my life
i'll look up ur pic

*****asparagus
don't worry about it, it's okay. Oh, THAT accusation. Now i get
it... well, that whole accusation, i could tell u about the
conversation with *makes up nickname* artichoke i had.. it's quite
the interesting one and sheds light on the whole carrot lettuce deal.
ANYWAYS... i have no idea why they don't accept calling, but thats
all too difficult for me to figure out... so yeah.
im sorry u got in another huge fight.. but let's look at it like
this. next may ill be able to drive ppl around, and we can go
somewhere whenever and it'll be fun.. and after that only two more
years and then u'r free..
sigh... btw.. the friday plan, it works for me, in the emails i
thought u were actually going to meet him. I don't understand teh
whole "closure" thing... r u gonna stop "sending notes" to him after
or what? its prob in the story huh? ill read teh story later and
write summing here after, but right now im gonna go outside and ride
ray.. so have a good day and ill talk to u soon

***celery***
i hope it's ok...ya the accusation...i dont know it just makes me
SOOO mad...i've never been acused of that before...you know?...*i
wonder if anyone else reads this*
ya i heard abt ur artichoke thing...but do you think it's me
or...*thinks of nickname*...beet! hahaha!! anywayz me or beet?
honestly...i think it might be beet...cuz it would make no sense if
it was me
ya..as soon as i can drive...wow when i have my own car...i'll like
fucking leave the city, the country, just to get away with them...WOW
I SAID FUCKING!! bwahahaha...sorry i cant really cuss much these
days...
fucking fucking fucking fucking..
wow that was fun
ok on to more important stuff...the closure thing is abt crap in
ass...i think you know what i mean...if you hadn't figured out
already that it was crap in ass...
so what wuz that thing abt tcbraver? (travis)
i should stop sending notes to him...but its so much fucking fun
you know? i dont know...last night i told him this major MAJOR
lie...so now i cant send any pix
he's all "are you hot"
and i'm all "hott..very hott...hott as hell"
so ya no pix for him!! lol
have you read the story yet? i know probably like no one read
it...but its important to me besides the fact that it's dauntingly
*not really* long...i dont get how people are so intimidated by it...
i mean you read my 46 page one...hahaha imagine reading my 400 pg
one...THAT would be funny!!
i should sit someone down and make them read it in one
sitting...they'd probably start sobbing cuz it was so horrible...lol
okey dokey...i should go mount...ya
since kyle is being NOSY!!
blech...
ok i'll ttyl c u at 330 maybe adios mi amiga
luv ya muchly




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