csadler

random mumblings
2001-09-18 13:35:07 (UTC)

What a Wonderful World

I see trees of green, red roses too
I see them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.

I see skies of blue and clouds of white
The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.

The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people going by
I see friends shaking hands saying how do you do
They're really saying I love you.

I hear babies crying, I watch them grow
They'll learn much more than I'll never know
And I think to myself what a wonderful world
Yes I think to myself what a wonderful world.
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something to get me through the day :) i spent far too
much time feeling sorry for myself...sure i have it bad...i
work a shit job with shit hours...i have no car...i'm above
my eyeballs in debt...the degree that caused me all the
debt is going to waste :)...i live in a pigsty with a bunch
of crackheads/welfare...nobody loves me :)...i haven't been
home since last september (probably a year)...that's enough
bitching. you know what though, i think i'm becoming
socially abnormal. almost like a hermit. the only time i
really talk to people is through messenger, email or on the
phone...i live by myself and i only see other people
irregularly. no wonder she broke up with me...i'm socially
abnormal :) i'm looking for a change, but i don't know
what and believe it or not, deep down i'm probably happy in
this little rut that i live in. well i can't just sit here
and mope anymore...gotta go job hunting. fuck!!!!!!!!
there now i feel better :) it's funny how things
change...2 years ago i wouldn't have given vicki a second
look...honestly...but now i think we could hang and have a
good time. i'm such a sap...i do need more self-
confidence...i went to lunch with vicki and chris and they
were talking shit to each other having fun and i was
like...i would never do that. oh well maybe it's
true...maybe i am wooking por nub in all the wrong places :)

craig