Weepingman

A vestiege of inner thoughts once had.
2003-01-31 06:39:56 (UTC)

A shadow of my heart.

I closed my eyes as I sat on my bed. I let out a deep
breath. I slowed my pulse and slowly drifted to sleep. When
I opened my eyes I was in a darkened room. In front of me
stood an angel. He had a face of a lion, the wings of an
eagle and the body of a man. We stood facing each other. A
storm raged above us. The clouds moved around us along with
the wind. The clouds spun in a circular movement. And they
were centred around us.
Then, before I knew it, I threw a punch at him. An ancient
anger welled up inside me. We fought. He flew about the
room roaring anf charging down at me. Then finnaly I beat
him. I took the sword from his waist, and swung it at his
head. He was dead.
I looked down at my hands, they were glowing. In fact my
whole body was glowing. I felt strong. And powerfull. I
could feel this new energy running through my viens. I took
a step forward and seemed to light my own way through the
dark. I searched and searched in the darkness for a way
out. I grew impatient. The anger inside me rose till I was
beating my fist to the ground. I screamed and cursed.
I...roared. As I streched my arms upward I realized that
the walls and roof of this strange place were becoming
smaller, trying to kill me it seemed. Or was I getting
larger?
I was forced to crouch like like a baby in the womb,
balling up my body till I could take no more. I pushed and
pushed at the walls that caged me in.
"Enough! I must be free!" I thought.
I pushed and flexed till the walls broke apart. I could
feel the dirt crumble under my hands. The roof fell apart
as I tore everything down. Light streamed in along with
freah air. I was free. As I brushed the dirt from my eyes I
began to see across a great land. Lush green hills swept
over the earth, a clear blue sky and bright sun shone above
me.
I was huge. Taller than any of the trees that I could see.
Higher than any of the hills that lay before me. The world
looked perfect. I felt like a god. That the world was mine
and mine alone. But then I became fearfull of what might
happen. What if some creature stronger than I came along
and destroyed it? I had to protect my world. I had to
protect it from harm. It had to be destroyed. The horizon
grew dark along with my eyes. A blood red colour covered
the sky above me.
"I will destroy this place!" I cried.
But silence only came. I stood there incapable of anything.
The air was silent. No birds...nothing. Then a voice.
"I'll be here" It said.
I staggered back and forth, straining to keep my eyes open.
"I'll be here" It said again.
"Why?" A second voice called.
"I'll be waiting here".
"For what?" The 2nd voice asked.
"For you. So if you come here, you'll find me. I promise."
The voices stopped. My eyes became heavy. I blinked and
watched the world fade away. I closed my eyes and rubbed
them. When I opened them I saw my room. The blinds were
shut. I walked around the house and found no-one. Then, I
felt it. Something outside, something coming for me. The
house shook, then settled down. I could hear the rafters in
the roof bending and creaking above me.
I carefully made my way to the front door. I could hear the
wind outside tring to open it. I slowly reached out to the
handle to open it. The wind blew stronger. Something at the
back of the house was torn off and thown into the sky. I
could hear the roof being ripped apart.
I lowered my head, opened the door, and ran out. I turned
my head towards the outskirts of the city. Grey clouds sat
on the edge of the horizon. The closer the sky was to me
the darker it bacame. I then turned my head towards the
middle of the city. And there it was. A huge white sphere.
Pure energy, and growing larger by the second. The black
sillouettes of the buildings crumbed away as the light grew
and swallowed them up. The sounds of twisting metal
screamed out as if calling for help. All around it the
ground was torn up. Powerlines flew through the air,
everything was being sucked into the light. The clouds
above circled it. Spinning like the inside of a blender
they twirled.
I looked harder and deep into the light. I started to see a
figure. It was me! I was older, stronger. I was fighting a
man on a horse. He carried a large sword made of fire. The
light suddenly grew too bright to look upon.
I could feel myself being drawn into the light. My feet
started to lift from the ground and I was sucked to the
center of it.
Inside was warm, silent and calm. I looked around but I was
surrounded by light. Then, a voice talked to me.
"I'm here" It said. The sound coming from everywhere and
nowhere all at once.
"Who?" I asked. Trying to understand.
"I've been waiting here" It said once more.
"But...for what?"
"For you, you came here. Now you've found me. I knew you
would". The voice echoed once more.
"Who are you?" I asiked nervously. The light around me
getting hotter and harder to take.
"I am...". The voice was cut short by a gust of wind
blowing across my face. I opened my eyes and I lay on my
side in a ruined street. Collapsed buildings lay around me.
I stood up and looked at the crimson moon melting at my
will.Then, a chorus of voices joined with me.
"I....am andrew".




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