sweetaddiction

fuck.

i am so fuckgin pissed the fucking fuck FUCK off.
im so mad i cant even talk. so im writing.
she cheated on me.
on me.
she cheated on me.
what the fuck dude.
this was so not my fuckgin fault this fuckgin time.
at all
i cant handle this.
there is SO fucking much fuckgin shit going on
sandy calls me
jennifer moving back
im moving out
fuckgin christinas moms pregnant
and now
now
fucking emily decides to fuckgin cheat on me.
oh my god.
we were so happy.
i was so happy.
she was so fuckgin great
and then what the fuck
what the fuck happened.
i didnt do anything.
this is so not my fault.
i loved her so much
through ALL her fuckgin shit
through all of that.
i was there.
you know.
i fucking analyzed everything.
i cant understand
i dont understand
and you know, i should have expected this.
i fuckgin should have
i cared this time.
you know.
i fucking cared so fuckgin much
andi thought that this was real
i though that this could work
i made it work.
i fuckgin spent so much of my time and money and driving
and it hurts my back to drive and i did it anyway and i
never told her and fucking you know
i could have fucked so many fuckni gpeople
and i didnt
i could have fucked up so many times
and i fuckgin didnt.
i choose not to.
and she choose to.
its so fucking fucked up.
fuck this man
fuck me for caring
is that what youre telling me god
huh
what the FUCK
you know
fuck that man
fuck it
i fucking loved her
i still fucking do
i cant just stop
oh well she cheated on me
so let me not care abotu her anymore
no
that doesnt happen
fuck this
and fuck me
fuck me for all i fucking did
fuck me fuck me for giving a shit
fuck me so fuckgin much
im not stupid
im better off if i dont fuckgin care
its better when i dont care
and i just fuck them
and then they leave
or i fuck them over
and i dont care
i FUCKING CARE.
you know.
i fuckgni let myself care.
i cheat on EVERYONE
and i DIDNT
i fuckgni didnt
NOT FUCKING EVEN WITH JENNIFER
fuck that
fuck
fuck that.
its really fucking late.
im so upset.
i cant handle much more you know
my grandma fucking dies
i get held up
i almost dont graduate.
i fucking loose all my friends to fucking stupid places
shauns not here
fars not here
fucking and sandy calls me and tells me crrazy shit
i do not deserve all of this man
what the fuck have i done
i just want to be happy.
i was so fuckgin happy.
i love her so much
i cant believe she would do this
what could she have been thinking
AND
AND
she made me feel like shit all day.
and she lied to me.
you LIED to me emily.
how EXACTLY am i supposed to deal with this.
how.
i can take a lot
i can take a lot of fuckgin shit
but i can not take dishonesty.
that is my ONE thing.
no matter how many people i fucked over man
i never fuckng lied about it
and i cant understand how you could do that to me
do any of this to me.
i dont
not if you care about me at all
you told me i was being stupid
you know
"shes just my friend."
you told me that TODAY
after the fact.
i ASKED you if anything happened
and you said no
you LIED
straight the fuck up lying.
i dont believe this.
i just dont.
i put forth so much effort
and i know you did too
and that was all fuckgin shot to hell
fuck that
fuck this
i should fucking just go back to the way i was before man
fucknig girls and not giving a SHIT
not giving ONE FUCKING SHIT
because when you do
you get FUCKED
i thoguht i was bitter and jaded over sandy.
she really fucked me up.
and you know.
i thought i could be okay.
i was okay.
and now
all of that is being questioned
everything.
nothing is making sence to me at fuckgni all
i dont get it
i just fucking dont get it
i loved you emily.
i fucking love you.
i fucking would have done anything.
and i fucking WOULDNT and DIDNT do anything.
you know.
fucking fuck me
fuck that
fuck this
fuck this i have a huge fuckgin test tomorrow an dwhat the
fuck am i doing
its fuckgin late as shit
and i just got home
i love sergio
hes great.
i dont understand.
im not crying.
i didnt fucking cry.
thats pretty bad
you know
i didnt fucking cry at all
im beyond crying anymore.
i KNEW this was going to happen
and SO THE FUCK DID YOU
and YOU didnt FUCKING care
do you REALIZE this?
you really need to think about all that youre fucking
telling me
because you know
obvisouly you didnt emily.
fucking you didnt.
how can you say that you did
you wouldnt have.
you know.
you fucking wouldnt have done shit.
i dont get it
i dont get this at all
this is just all wrong.
we were supposed to both try
and both be good
and not do anything
and you know
you didnt do anything with wendy
but fucking her?
fucking her of ALL fucking peopel
and youre sitting there asking me if it would be weird if
she was at your party.
LOL.
FUCK THAT DUDE.
fuck that.
and
AND AND AND
you FUCKING were with her ALL fuckign god fuckgin damn
fuckgin DAY
you know.
you OBVIOUSLY didnt feel TOO fuckgni bad hun
obviously.
lol.
what the fuck.
what youre telling me and what the FUCK youre doing just
dont fucking add up
man
what fuckgin ever
just another fucking HUGE fucking FUCK YOU ASHLEY
thats all this fucking is
FUCK YOU ashley FUCK you fuck you.
fuck me.
fuck this.
fucking i love you.
you know.
i fucking love you man
and why would you fuck with that
i did everything right.
i fucking did
i BELIEVED you
i DIDNT FUCKGIN QUESTION YOU
AND YOU FUCKING LIED TO ME
you fucking LIED
and made me feel SO fucking BAD all FUCKING DAY
i APOLOGIZED
LOL
yeah
fuck me.
jesus.

you know.

i dont know how much more i can take from you world.

.i really fucking dont.