angelface119

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2003-01-31 04:08:03 (UTC)

Fucking valentine's day

oh my god have you ever noticed that valentines day gifts
are strictly driven towards women...i mean seriously, this
just sucks i get online to try and find a good idea for a
guy that i am jsut starting to see, you know things arent
that serious...and my options are flowers, lingerie, and
chocolate...thats fucked up, what about the boys, i really
want to do something sweet for him but i have no idea what
to do..ive got the card covered but past that i dont know
what to do..i dont want to get too personal, but at the
same time i want him to know that i was thinking of
him ...i jsut want it to be nice...blaaaaahhhhhh!....god i
dont even know if i get to see him on valentines day so i
dont know waht im worried about ....
and then...
theres the whole thing with josh...i want to get him
something but at the same time i think it would almost hurt
us both more if we actually acknowledged the day...its jsut
easier to forget about romance when it comes to him bc
thinking about how we cant do what we really want right now
hurts like hell, so what im saying is if he acknowledges it
than great i will too, but i dont want to start anything
first so ..its on him...blah..im so damn lost with things
here lately.....

steve steve steve...you konw i really like him i hope
thigns go well bc he is just a really sweet guy..i wouldnt
mind having him around..i mean i dont crave him, but he is
someone i think of

josh..on the other hand is someone who i would lay down my
life for i think so damn it ..its kinda hard not to think
about him...anywho, back to my great search for feelings in
a box..wish me luck


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