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Life...what can you say...
2003-01-30 18:22:50 (UTC)

actually feeling good

yaeh yeah yaeh im actually feeling good today n im not
really sure why. i had a little fight about a simple matter
with my mom but it got fine five mins later. i like that
about my mom cos she can scream like hell and can be like
totally over it a minute after that. i love her!!!
im home now n i wanna sleep but im not sleepy cos i had to
much sleep in the afternoon today. diyana came wif her
family to tonight to my shop n she actually looked bad. we
had talks about her problem wif her family n all. i even
had this crazy idea of having our own house n move out,
crazy huh?! but unforetunately were too young to even own a
house. its goin to be a very long way for that to happen.
im really trying to make her happy n actually take her away
frm her problems as far as i can.
madir did not call ofcours but he msg me gud night. i
actually had the urge to ask him when the hell im gonna be
able to meet him, n he said he didnt know when either. then
i got mad n told him that he actually didnt WANT to see me
at all. he replied that its not true n he dont care
whatever i say cos he knows that hes not like that. so, ok
i agreed but yet again i dont think i wiil ever get to see
at all. hes like so unreacheble although he has a hp now, n
its a hi card!!! how good can a hi card be? i still cant
talk to ...as if hes goin to pick up the goddamn phone if i
were to call him. nevermind. im making up my mind now. i
dont wanna to be waiting for his call n as a matter of
fact, for him as well. since i recalled him saying that hes
not really at the urge off bothering hinself with any
serious relationship. ok darling, i heard that!! so ill be
doin my things n carry on with my life.
news flash, nabilah got like very very good results for her
o level n im not even happy bout it. why? i guess simply
because i know that i 'd never get good results.
definitely, people around us will compare n sart saying
thing that i dont really like to hear like "shes younger n
she can do this n that, blah blah blah".fuck them man. i
guess i just have to wear the stupid happy smile.
what im interested in right now is im actually studying
very hard n im getting what i want, n be who i want to be.




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