Eyes4Guys

Personal hell & back again
2003-01-30 06:37:28 (UTC)

Am I not supposed to go?

In 13 days, I am supposed to have my bags, and a few
personal belongings, on a plane and I'm supposed to fly out
to Colorado. Everyone knows this. My parents are going with
me so I don't go alone, but the whole purpose was so I
could see Chris. I would miss him on our two year
anniversary, but I could see him on Valentine's Day for the
dance. God I completely forgot, I can't find a dress, I
might as well pack one I've already used or borrow one.

Anyways, there is a chance that I may not get to see him
for very long. He had a physical exam that he had to take
and he failed it. That is bad news for us. For one thing,
now he is on atheletic probation so he can't sky dive this
summer, he can't soar this summer and he can't go anywhere
during the weekends until next year. That means that he
can't leave the campus when we come to visit him.

He hasn't sent up his release form. I kept telling him he
should. He is always saying how seeing me means more than
anything to him, but he never sent it up again. When he
did, it got sent back because he had done it incorrectly.
He hasn't sent it up again and we get there in 13 days. If
that form gets denied, then there goes the chances. I could
see him for the dance, but that would be it because we
wouldn't be allowed on the campus. It has to go through the
cadet chain of command, so the first stop would be to a
particular firstie (a senior) that dislikes him quite a
bit. So it may get denied immediantly.

There is still a chance though. My father is a retired
Leutenent Colonel. Chris said that there is a chance that
if that form is denied that my father can call up his AOC.
Dad outranks him. Regardless of what service my dad was in,
he can persuade him to let Chris go for the weekend. The
plan so far is for Dad to call and say that his family will
be flying up there specifically to visit the Academy, and
that we would particularly enjoy Chris to be our escort.

See, my father was part of the Corp of Engineers, so his
company, branch whatever built the chapel that is at the
Academy. I don't know if Dad helped, but the Corp of
Engineers built it a long time ago. Both of my parents were
there a long time ago, so they know what to expect. It
could work. Rank is rank, or so Chris says. Dad may go for
it. I mean after all, we are flying out there to see him.
It would be worthless if we couldn't and I'm sure it is too
late to return the tickets. Dad is a very good debater. He
is a Construction Contract Specialist, and works
independently for three major companies in the country,
only two I am familiar with. But whenever they go to court,
my dad plays laywer although he is not one. He didn't study
to be one, he was an Engineer, but he taught himself
through books everything he needed to know about law.

At one court session, my dad won a 7 million dollar
lawsuit. So his "boss" gave him a brand new laptop,
printer, trip for all of us to go to his cabin on the
border of Canada for the weekend and a weekend getaway to
Adventure Island in a very expensive hotel room ($200 a
night). Dad also got a bonus. He knows what he's doing, I'm
sure he could talk a way for Chris to get out. It's just a
matter of how I will talk him into doing this.

It means so much to me to fly up there and visit Chris.
When he told me that he may not get to spend time with me,
I started crying so badly. He kept apologizing, talking
about how he let me down. He didn't, he ended up getting
injured during that test. He tore both his hamstrings and
messed up his shoulder again. He gave his all, and was so
close, but he failed. He is seriously considering leaving
again. I guess he never did quit considering it, talking
about how he should have never left my side. I don't know
what to tell him. I tell him to stay, and I tell him to
come home. We are both confused, but it's his future, so
his decision. I can not play a part in this.

Eh, it seems as though I'm not supposed to go up there. I
should have anticipated this. I should have known that it
would not be that easy for him to have off. Something would
happen. But I had this fantacy that because the form would
be sent in, and because it is Valentine's Day weekend (with
a holiday that following Monday) that he would get it.
Besides, one of his teachers told him that it shouldn't be
a problem because his GPA is in the top of his class. He is
brilliant. I believe he said he GPA there is 3.71 and that
is very, very good.

I have to see him. I can't go without seeing him on both
our anniversary and Valentine's Day. I mean it isn't the
end of the world, I will see him for Spring Break (and we
may have his house to ourselves) but that just seems so far
away when I could see him in 2 weeks.

But things can't always go our way. We'll just see how
things go.




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