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Ezoic
2003-01-30 05:15:04 (UTC)

HELLoooo

What is up people?? I am okay I guess... Yeah I didn't go to
school today because I woke up late and I went to go take a shower
and I stood there looked in the mirror and was like screw this I am
just not going to go to school so I didn't. I stayed at home and had
my dads ex-girlfriend Cathy call in for me. It wasn't to bad I
watched some screwed up movie and spent some time with my sister.
But anyway.
I just have been in a very confused mood I don't know what to think
anymore with people and that just drives me nuts. I put up
a front that I am happy but really I am all tore up inside
over what I am not sure I guess just everything. I don't
know sometimes I think I am just going crazy. For like 4
days I was in the best mood ever and then I just have my
really bad days for no reason what so ever, it just like
comes from nowhere. I just want to give up so bad on
everything! I guess I will be okay in a day or two or
something.
If I feel this way while Aaron is here then I don't know
how I will feel later on when he is not here anymore. It
is going to just kill me to see him leave. I don't know
what I am going to do without him. Mom says you were doing
fine before without him you will be okay again. Yeah I was
okay but once you have something like that you never want
to let it go. I know thats really selfish. But I love
Aaron so much. He is like the brother I never had. I know
I will live but its just going to be so much harder.
I guess I am going to go because I am just tired of thinking.


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