Hollie bee

KiKi lAnd
2003-01-29 22:24:47 (UTC)

.how far can a rubberband stretch

.... apparently, NOT far enough. im STILLLLLLLL waiting for
everything to snap and fall apart. every fucking DAY is
more miserable than the last, and i guess it will just get
more and more like that. until i am -874659% shitty. i
dunno. brother talks of how things got so messed up, blames
himself. and i just care Less and Less...about what exactly
causes the things that happen. something as simple as
misplacing a loosing my dads "TREASURED" Hunting knife.
can cause argument and divorce. i should hide it on him,
cause a fight, then flip out on him for being asshole, and
then he would leave for sure... ? i dunno, i ignore, i have
my own little bubble, i like to be alone. yes, i have Mike
and Dave and Jay, and all people at school to talk to ...
but i still do wish i could fall asleep and not wake up. i
want curl up into the ball of shittyness i am, and just ...
go away ...




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