evil1359

Evil's Journal
2003-01-29 02:43:38 (UTC)

Starting from the begining...

Well I should probably talk more about myself so that it
might help readers that dont know me (i doubt there are
alot) understand me better, which might help when you
read...
Name: Harry
Age: 13
D.O.B.: June 21, 1989
Residence: Quad Cities, Iowa
Sex: Male
Status:Dating
I am dating the perfect person for me. I know she is
the one i want to be with for the rest of my live. I asked
her if she wanted to get married so that i would never
lose her (which i almost did). And she said yes! so know
we are "engaged" to be engaged as some people would put.
School: 8th grade at Bettendorf Middle School
IM:
msn: evil1359
aol: evil1359
site: http://www.takeoff.to/harryspage
Email: [email protected]
(I am always on, and free to talk with my fans :P)
Well, now might be a good time to talk about my... um...
problem (if you already know just skip this part)...

sry for all of the spelling mistakes. ok i am currently
dating a wonderful girl named holly. Holly has some really
bad "trubbles" at home. she is always depressed. I, being
her bf, am there for her. A while back she gave me that
look(you know the one) and said "i love you". And i felt a
rush of feelings come over me. And i responded "i love you
too". and i really do. and by now your thinking "oh geez,
he's 13! what does he know". well go screw yourself.
anyway, holly doesnt have any real "close" friends. but
one of her closer friends started talking to me more. her
name is bonnie. so after a while me and bonnie are really
close friends. she knew more about me then my friends
combined. then holly came to me and said "you to must
really be friends. she knews more anout you then i do!"
which is true. well bonnie had dumped her bf a week before
because he wouldnt sneek out with her. and bonnie had
asked me if i would sneekout. and bonnie being my friend
and knowing alot of my secreats i didnt want to lose. so i
went with her. so we are out by a school by her house
sitting and talking. well it is on the edge of snowing
about now so we decide to go to a water underpass need her
house. bonnie had brought along a friend named ashley. so
we are freezing our bums off in this dark underpass and
thats when i t happened. bonnie gave me that look. then
she kissed me. and i didnt know what to do. and what was
the lodgical thing to do? so i kissed her back. by now
ashley is at the other end of the underpass
conplaining, "My chacha is cold". me and bonnie contined
kissing for a while. after a sometime we all walk back to
bonnies house. they go back inside and i go back home. the
next day i get an email from her saying that she had a
great time and if ashley wasnt there it "would have been
alot more fun ". so i'm thinking "ok yeah, my parents dont
know, my gf doesnt know, ashley doesnt know, and i madeout
with bonnie! people through themselfs at her! and she
kissed me! WOOHOO!". well i get a note in school from my
gf a coupple of days ago at school. i give her a hug and
walk to my next class. but the hug seemed really odd. well
i go to class and completly forget about the note. the day
goes by fine, but holly doesnt seem to be happy. she has
no real fealing on her. I think something must be wrong at
home. i ask her and she gives me the look like "i dont
wanna talk about it". so i back away. later in the last
class if the day i remember about the note. i take it out
and read it. the first words of the note go"u jackass! how
could you do this to me!?!". SHIT! this isnt going to end
well. i contine to read the note. "i hope you are happy
with bonnie!". the rest of the note was all the same
thing. but one thing stuck out of it all. holly said that
Val (bonnies best friend) told her and seemed overly
happy. we as i find out holly didnt know about what
happened. val said that bonie had told her i was dumping
holly for her. and thats all holly knew. well i was
pissed. i didnt stop by hollys locker after school. i
walked right to where i get picked up. and along the way i
see bonnie and val walking to vals locker. i called bonnie
a bitch and kept walking. she looked at me and said "what
did i do?". and val had a weird smurk on her face. an
evil, staisfied look. i talked to bonnie that night. she
said she didnt tell val that. and i asked her what she had
told val about that night. she said everything. i called
holly and said i was sorry and she forgave me. but she
didnt know about what happened that night. i decieded not
to tell her. when i got off the phone holly was happy
again. then i got a call from val. she said "i just wanted
to let you know this is all your fault". and she hung up.
then i got a call from bonnie. i told bonnie that i need
to tell her before val did. i need to be honest". and
after bonnie helped me get some currage to tell holly, i
called her. i told her everything. all of it. holly
paused. i could hear tears. i told her i was sorry and i
shouldnt have let it get out of hand. after holly
questioned me a bit she paused again.
holly: i knew something like this was happening. but i'll
just have to forget about it...
evil: ... what?
holly: i guess you just lucky i'm a pushover...
and just like that it was over. no more crying. she was
just going to forget about it, like nothing happened. i
couldnt beleive it. it was so easy. but wait... what does
this mean. she didnt get made at me when i madeout with
one of her closest friends? it would have been so much
easier is she was mad. i dont know why, but it would have.
no i feel really bad. now bonnie is sad but wants me and
holly happy. holly wants me and bonnie happy. i want them
both happy. but it cant happen. now after pleeding bonnie
to be my friend again she has agreed. holly still doesnt
care. and i want to kill val! but its all ok now. they all
are just fine. but not me. i dont know what to do! should
i go back to being single? all of this is driving me
crazy. i am going through a depressed state again. and th
only people who understand what happened are me and
bonnie. and worst of all, bonnie is moving. but you could
drive there in 30mins but i cant drive. i dont know what
to do. a mix of emotions are going through me... and its
all my fault...

that was taken from a message board. things are all better
but people almost died because of my lack of judgement...
it will haunt me for the rest of my life... it still
does... every time i take time to think about it i cry...
and i dont cry much... I really want to regain hollys
trust in me... Well getting off this subject

Hobbies: AGS!!! (www.adventuregamestudio.co.uk), drawing,
working on my site, kissing :p... and other stuff...

um... it's late so... good night... (aka: dont know what
else to say)

love, Harry




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