humming bird

my F***ed up head
2003-01-28 23:28:08 (UTC)

whitey

so yeah, if things get any more shittier there is a chance
that my head is going to explode.... jason promised me that
he would see me today- not so much right and yeah dude,
megan had sex with a guy that she has known for 4 days
named whitey who is so cracked out that he doesnt know
what the fuck is going on around him half the time- she
thinx he's cute, hes cute yeah but hes as dumb as a fuckin
rock- and she has only known him for four days -FOUR!. i
have been telling hr dont have sex dont have sex dont have
sex- that did not mean "go have sex with some guy u barely
know without a condom!" that is the worst part of it- she's
megan, shes like my lil sister and all i want to do is
protect her from everything shitty that i have had to
gothru and she just made a bigger mistkae then i did. shes
was spose to have better then this - she deserves better
then some guy named whitey.... and i saw stevo and i sitll
am not over him even tho i am with jason but its not like
anything will ever happen with stevo, i know that i just
miss him, he was my perfect guy and i never got to cry
about loosing him, so i did today and i cried about jason
and i cried about megan, i cired about evrything- but god
megan- i mean yeah i understnd that she is gonna make
mistakes and that she has to learn for herself and
experience life and that i cant protect her form all the
bad things in the world but she's better then this and she
knows it, she regrets it and all i want to do is scream and
yell at her but that isnt gonna do anything but make her
feel worse, nonethe less i no longer like whitey and i dont
like thomas becuz of the factthat he RAPE nikki, i hate
kyle for raping me all i did was tell him no a thousand
times and all he kept doing was taking my clothes off and
not listening to me and he put the condom on himself, god
at least i got a condom tho- btnikki didnt deserve that
and megan didnt deserve this- i feel like i can deal with
it, like know how but they dont or at least not megan... i
dunno i gotta go- peace




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