Aa-chan

Diary of a Deranged Fangirl
2003-01-28 16:01:56 (UTC)

And So It Goes

Well yall I am truly annoyed with my mother. Last night we
got into yet another little argument, which was about me,
school, and Max-Chan. She was like she didn't like me
going out with him, but she wouldn't stand in my way
either. It's like "gee thanks..." So I told her that I
didn't want her thinking that I wasn't going to school
because of him and I told her why. That she all of a
sudden brought up Tyler and Ron. So she starts saying that
I didn't think that. And that she only wants me to follow
though on what I sarted.

Ya know something. I'm getting really fucking sick of this
shit. I said was going to finish college and I ment it. I
really wish she would stop being so fucking neurotic about
this. Had I known that Anchorage would have been such a
fuck up place I would have spared everyone and never gone.
But I'm going to take this semester off and in the fall I'm
going to go to Allegeny County Community College. And so
help me god, by May, I'm leaving this house and this time
I'm not coming back. I don't care what I have to do, but I
will leave this house pemanently.

I haven't been this fucking annoyed with my mother in
years. But see unlike when I was a teenager, I do have the
ability to leave. But since I'm so damn destitute right
now, I can't really do much of anything. But after I come
back from Pittsburg next month. It's all about looking for
a job and saving up money, cause I'm dead serious, I will
leave this house by May 15th.

I don't know why it is that my mother has this selective
hearing. I said I would go to school and finish school and
I ment it. You know she had the fucking gall to tell me
that I never follow though on anything. Grant it, there's
a lot of shit that I never followed though on, but when I
tell you that I'm going... GOING to do something, it may
take a little while, but it does eventually get done.

I said I was going to go to Alaska and I went. I said I
was leaving CCP never to return and I did that too.
Anytime I say I'm going to go to a convention, don't I
always go. So I wish she wouldn't give me that shit about
not following though because there's been lots of shit I've
followed though on, but no you can't tell my mother
anything bacause she has the miraculous ability to see and
hear what she wants to see and hear.

Woo-hoo: Was playing Grand Theft Auto Vice City
yesterday. Oh god, why is that game so funny.

Barf: Scream!!!! This situation at home is getting to be
unbearable.

Current Song: al.ni.co's Prayer




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