MistakenBeauty

A Lost Mind
2003-01-28 07:31:26 (UTC)

poems

Jaroslaw Pryshlak
The one and the only
My angel
The one that protects me
From life and death
The one that made me a better person
But died
After that
All i knew was depression
How could i kno another feeling
He was all i had
And one day
Was just gone
I loved him like no other
He WAS
My life
My savior
My survivor and Love
A father figure i've never had
He's the one i dread
But time to dread nomore
It hurts me to fell this way
It hurts even more to know to know
That when i hurt
He hurts even more.....

11:59 P.M.
1/23/03
*--*

What happened
Every night i drink
And i think
Should i have said
The shit i said last week
Or should i have been quiet
Like how i used to be
All these things jumble in my head
Would it be better if i was dead
3 in the morning on the phone
With a family member
Thinking, talking about angels
A presence fills the room
What to do
Starring at me like my lifes about to end
Is this how lifes supposed to be?
Unhappily ever after
What has become of me?

2:07 p.m.
1/26/03
*--*


Hey Bp.
Im still here
Waiting for you to take me away
To take me away to a better place
Why have you gone so far
I know yuo hear me crying
You know i need you
I hate god for taking you away
The only person that seen the real me
Even cared for me when i cared
How did i get this opportunity
For even knowing you
Im not worth that
For you to love me
I dont know why you did
I know now, you were hurting
But you always smiled
How did you hold it all back
Im tryng my hardest to do the same
But i dont know how
I dont know what to do anymore
Your the one i looked up to
You might not have known
But my problems went away when i saw your smile
It still kills me
That one morning i found out
Please come back to me
I need your help
I dont think i can live anymore
Everythings gone so wrong
Its so hard
Nobody understands
Exactly what im going through
Your the only one
I see you watching over me
Making sure my life isnt taken away from me
But why
Why wont you let me see you again?
Did i change so much that your not there for me anymore?
I need your love again
Please im begging you
Im lost
I just need to be found again.


8:56 P.M.
1/26/03

AngelsBeauty




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