angelface119

My Reality
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2003-01-28 03:16:48 (UTC)

God damn fucking bad timing

Ok, so dilema....first off i really like steve a whole hell
of a lot he is jsut a cool kid and i wouldnt mind trying
things with him, but then josh lets me know that one day,
as i phrase it " when he gets his shit together" he would
be interesting in getting back with me, but for the time
being a friends with benefits thing would be cool with him,
and oh god do i want that....but at the same time i would
like to behave bc i dont want to ruin things with us and i
dont want to ruin things with steve...ok so the deal is...
my plan is to be good friends with josh, and let him know
that i love him with all of my heart and that if he gets
his shit together in the future i would love to have him in
my life and would pretty much drop all to be with him with
what i know now, but until that day comes i am going to
live my life and stay happy and i dont want to be alone so
its cool... i am going to see where things take me with
steve, if its a relationship than so be it, but i
completely understand that so far i dont ever see me being
as happy with anyone else than i am with josh...josh is
number one top dog, so i will be with steve and so far my
belief is that i will be content and happy, and not lonely,
but honestly i dont see me falling as madly in love with
him as i did and have for josh....so lets recap:
1. gonna be friends with josh
2. gonna let him get his shit together
3. gonna see where things go with steve
4. i know that so far josh is my number one pick out of
everyone in my life
5. i would not be opposed to comparing and contrasting josh
and whoever i am with if he decides to come back in my life
to see if i want to be with him
6. i love josh i absolutly love him wtih all of my heart
7. steve i really dig and could see being happy and content
with (but who knows we've only had two dates it could get
really really good or really really bad)
8. overall, when i look at the big picture, i cant see
myself being as happy with anyone in this world but josh

Figure out what you have to do, find where you want to go,
figure out how to love and be loved, and how to handle
emotino, and come back to me so i can make you the happiest
man in this world....i have all the time in the world for
you!!!


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