ami

when love is alive and hope is dead
2003-01-28 02:13:34 (UTC)

i love you sweatshirt...my red hooded sweatshirt...

i wish i can say how i truly feel in here, the only thing
that stops me is that maybe people will read this when i
dont want them too. but then whats the point of having a
public journal? i haven't the slightest idea. but i kinda
like it. when im bored i can write and whoever is even
more bored than i am can read this. that sucks that the
raiders lost yesterday, it was a real good super bowl game
though. half time sucked. the comercials werent all that
good as previous years. but the food i had was excelent as
it is one of the main points of super bowl sunday. yes,
well...

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i have this song stuck in my head. it is by incubus. and
yes, i do enjoy some incubus. really only s.c.i.e.n.c.e.
and some of morning view though. ya well anyways, i have
this song from them stuck in my head. it popped into my
head the other day and i have been listening to it a
little becuase it is a good song...well if ur interested
in finding out what song it is, please continue reading,
if not do whatever the fuck you want to do...

There's something about the look in your eyes
Something I noticed when the light was just right
It reminded me twice that I was alive
And it reminded me that you're so worth the fight
My biggest fear will be the rescue of me
Strange how it turns out that way
Could you show me dear...something I've not seen?
Something infinitely interesting
There's something about the way you move
I see your mouth in slow motion when you sing
More subtle than something, someone contrives
Your movements echo that I have seen the real thing

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i had an early day today so i went in at 7 am and got out
at 10 and then i went to the school my mother works at. it
was quite good to be there i must say. the principal is
one of the most wonderful people i have ever met in my
life and mostly all the staff are so cool and they give me
candy which i love. but ya i could actually concentrate on
my work which made me happy so i can get my second
semester english credit sooner than i thought, still a bit
late, but sooner than i thought. which is good. i need to
do better in school, and even though im trying my best, my
best isnt good enough so i have to work extra hard. god i
hate it, i put more energy than i have, into my work. and
i dont think i will get my p.e. credit becuase i cant
exercise because i dont have the energy, not becuase im
lazy...even though i am, i know i have to work hard when
it comes to school, but i dont know, i just cant really
move. aaron has seen me when he attempts to teach me how
to skateboard, i get tired really fast. when my brother
torments me i try to run from him, but i end up short of
breath real soon. i wasnt like this before. i loved, and
still love, to run. i have a treadmill. and i hate that
its just sitting there, becoming my snake's resting place.
i want to use it, and when i try i feel like im going to
faint. i can walk on it, but i cant run, and i want to
run. but i dont want to throw up after, which always
happens if i run. i hate it.

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so amanda's birthday is soon..1 or 2 days, i lost count.
how cool. i used to love my birhtday...haha i wonder what
happened?! seriously, i hated my last birthday... but ya
happy borthday to amanda, and hopefully she has a better
year than this past one..at least with less drama and more
action. haha.

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so valentine's day is coming up. i think im going to buy
those cards to hand out. i love them. i love getting them
too. haha *wink wink*. haha but no, seriously, valentine's
day is always so happy whether i have a boyfriend or not,
its just the love and the freindship love that is in the
air. some people call it just another media spectacle with
companies trying to rip you off, but beleive it or not, i
am glad that they try to rip me off, because i love that
holiday. it is possiblly tied for second with halloween,
only to loose to Christmas. i really like Christmas.

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today when i went on campus, it was real good seeing those
of you i saw!! especially ashley cruz because she is one
my bes friends and i havent seen her in an eternity!! but
i really, just loved being there. and seeing my sexy
german was a perk as well. well i must be off...i dont
really feel like writing anymore...




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