mr_drew

Andrew
2003-01-27 23:32:04 (UTC)

Really Good Day

Shit. *pause* Shit. I can't believe how things have been
going with me recently. It can't be more than a week, and
I've felt mostly happy and stuff all throughout it. Today
was one of the best of my recent happy period days yet.

College was a bit crappy. But not crappy, crappy. Which
was a good thing, because it's always crappy anyway. I had
Sociology. I had English. =) I did plan on staying in to
do some work, but my will power died and I rang Crag to say
to meet me earlier in town than I said the night before.

Soo, I waited for Crag in the Quadrant at one. First I was
standing against the shop windows by the main entrance, but
I moved because about 60 people were smoking in my face.
Then, Crag came and we started to walk around town. It had
fun just walking round and talking. Sometimes I worry that
the conversation might get a little repetitive and/or stale
between myself and Crag because I see him and speak to him
so often, but it didn't at all. I don't know why I even
thought it would. We were just laughing and joking the
whole time.

I ordered a YellowCard album from the guy in Musiquarium,
and bought a Bright Eyes single. Crag bought an 'A' single
and something else. Which, um, I should really remember.
But I don't. We saw some guy knock a whole pile of
magazines on the floor in HMV, and we went "Wah hey!" to
him, and loitered around to see if his face was bright red
when he'd picked them all up. But it wasn't. Mean, but a
little bit disappointing. =)


...Um, then we went bowling! We played two games and Crag
beat me in both. Not by much in the first game, but by a
little more in the second. These jocks in the lane next to
us were shouting and swearing and feigning injuries in an
attempt to draw attention to themselves. =/ I made a
conscious attempt not to give them mine. =) Dickheads.

Um, I got home and bummed around for a while. I listened to some
music upstairs, and then ran back downstairs and e-mailed Miriam when
I realised how much of a prick I've been to her, and to my friends in
general when I said before I'd try to be a better friend to
everyone. I e-mailed apologising how I should really make the effort
to reply to her even when I get told her e-mails don't come through.
She's persisted with e-mailing me even when I haven't replied.
Thanks for that, Mims. =) Really sorry. Feels like sometimes I
can't help being a dickhead, but I know I can. And it's so hard to
change when I say I will. I really have to try harder, or begin to
not make promises to myself that I can't keep.


In the evening, I went over to Jennie's house. I was pretty much
crapping myself
at the thought of going over to someone's house I'd never
been to before, and so the walk over there was sort of
disjointed. I didn't want to arrive early or late, so I
walked slow some times and faster at others. Slower was
better because it meant that I was delaying the time I got
there, and meaning delaying the time where I had to knock
the door and stuff.

...It was scary. But not as scary as I thought. The
anticipation is always worse. I should know that by now.
It's like the scarinees of receiving an injection, then
realising it was nothing when it was done.

Anyway, I just went up to Jen's room...and for the next few
hours we just talked. And talked some more. And told
jokes, and laughed and cried and stuff. =) It was really
fun. Initially I felt really shy, and I thought I was
making a complete fool out of myself, but Jennie's so easy
to talk to and stuff, and so non-judging of me that I felt
a lot more settled as the time wore on.

I was there about 4 hours in all. 6:30-10:30, but it never
at one point seemed like four hours. The time passed so
quickly. I don't know what else to say. It was a really
nice change from bumming around here all the time. And
Jennie's amazing company and stuff. I've barely known her
well for long, but it already seems that I've known her a
lot longer. It's great. I hope I can see her another time
soon, because I just find her so easy to get on with.

...And, wow. I think I made a friend. =) A living one.

Thanks, Jennie. =) You're brill.

Night-night,

Andrew.




Ad: