Sweetiepie91930

My MeSsEd Up LiFe
2003-01-26 21:18:31 (UTC)

It's been awhile

MAN..... where to begin. Well for starters this week has
sucked. I havent really enjoyed it i mean i love my parents
not being here but i am just overwhelmed with everything
that has happened. b/c first of all i locked my keys in my
car and then i got to see aaron and when i went down there
the firstt ime he didnt even talk to me so i was like omg
he made me drive all the way out her for no reason and then
i go to pick them up at coronado and they start yelling at
me and u heard them so i dont get to see yall and they are
pissed and they get in the car and they are like get in the
mother fuckin car and i was like dont boss me around adn
then they start cruying and amanda fuckin yells at me and
is like watch the damn road and starts fuckin cussing me
and then i pulled in the fuckin parking lot and i fucking
said get out of my fuckin car adn i was like all of yall
can walk ur god damn aasses home and they staryted to cry
and then i go like 1 mile and i get pulled obver by a
fuckin cop b/c i had to many ppl in my car i was
supposevely speeding and i didnt use my blinkerand so he
gave me warnings and i was like i fuckin hate all of yall
and i take ashley home and then i go pick up the fuckin
cloths and they just are still yelling at me so i was like
fuck this shit and so i am just really pissed and now i
regret going back out with aaron b.c my friends dont
support me and i have no one to talk to and i just need to
cry i have so muych going on in my life right now like my
cousin steven is going back to the milatery and is going to
korea and i am going to miss him so much he is like a big
bro ot me and i love him so much and just everything is
fucked up and i didnt do shit at all to anyone and i just
want my life to be normal i had everything i ever wanted i
had an awesome boyfriend, my best friend and the same
school with me and my parents and id idnt fight as much but
i guess i got everythign takin away from me when i had to
break up with him adn now i am sneaking around my parents
and lying to them and it sucks and then to top my bad week
off i had saturday practice at 7 in the fuckin morning
which sucked ass and my coach said we would have it but we
did it was horrible and we ended up being the only team
that had practice and everyone else watched movies and then
i was suppose to see aaron last night but i couldnt and i
think he is mad at me but whatever whats new i mean he is
always mad at me it is like i will never be good enough for
him and that pisses me off b.c i give this relationship all
that i know how to give and he is the first boy that i have
really loved and he treats me like fuckin shit even though
he doesnt think he does but he does and he needs to grow up
and learn how to treat a girl right
well hey i am going to go eat
i will talk to u later
~*Shay*~




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