jesterKing1

Day dreaming in Darkness...
2003-01-26 20:24:38 (UTC)

Jan 26, 2003

I think it has been a couple of days since I posted last.
Not much has changed. Though She started to make her own
Online Diary too. I don't know why... Maybe to let me get a
glimps of how she is feeling too...
She said that she is feeling lonley... That comes to me in a
few ways. I cant say that I am suprised. Because when we
were together we were constently together. But then I can
say that I am suprised, because I thought that this is what
she wanted and that she wouldnt be lonley. I can't say that
it doesnt make me feel, not good, but I would say rather
relived because I know that I am not the only one going
through this. Though I fell terribly alone, I do know that
she still cares for me and is here for me if i do need her.
Likewise with me. I think that by her turning 20, she is
getting scared that this is all her life is going to amount
to... :-/ baby, it wont... ( I say baby with affection :-P
). You'll leave this town, and get a good job, and make alot
of people happy. You have already done that to me (make me
happy that is).
She also said that she wants to experiance new things...
Well you can, but things also comes in time, like you said.
I have so much faith in you. More than myself. I know you
are a very bright intelligent women. One of the smartest
people I know (and that is saying alot, because I know alot
of smart people), and honestly I wouldnt consider myself on
even the same map as you. I look up to you for your curage,
and respect you for your kindness. I belive in you. Dont be
lonley, I am here, and I wont leave you. This much I
promise. Even as friends, I will help you through anything
because thats what friends do. LOL. Look at me, it started
out as somthing, then ended up as rambleing on about how I
belive in you. Well I do.
I should get going. I have to do my homework before I go out
to the party.
Happy Birthday Baby Girl (havent called you that in a long
time :-D ). Im here for you if you need anything.

~Luke




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