Jake

Welcome to my mind.
2003-01-26 19:00:08 (UTC)

January 26, 2003

Well I have just returned from going to Church and all.
When you sit for an hour praying for sanity you begin to
think about how you fit in. I mean, how do others seem to
see me and how do I affect them, doesn't that plague
everyone's mind? It storms through mine with a vengance
always..........

That almost makes me think, "Why the hell do girls do what
they do?" I go to the mall and just look around at people,
I try to understand them. I hate to preach and all, but it
is what I believe. I find it incredibly stupid that some
girl goes and finds some yo-boy type of guy, gets knocked
up, and either gets married, beaten and cheated on or
abandoned. If you read this and think it applies to you, I
pity you, if not good for you. Just someone try to follow
my logic, pisses me off extremely, everyone only believes in
sex anymore, thats it. There is no such thing as searching
for companionship or friendship, those are secondary to most
people. And what a same it is..........

I hate what runs through my mind, it makes me want to be
someone supportive and uplifting to others. On the other
hand I almost feel like "TO HELL WITH THEM, THEY DESERVE
WHAT THEY GET!" But that goes against every fiber of my
being. I swear I better invest in a lobotomy...........

I am now almost positive that I have no one to converse with
about my ideas and thoughts, they are too foreign and far
fetched for many, lonliness of intelect leads to its neglect
and downfall. So be it, I see it approaching.

Now off of my thoughts.

I went to the mall yesterday. It wasn't as fun as I wanted
it to be, ohh well. I saw "Darkness Falls" with my friend
Ryan. The movie stunk. I was hopping it would be better,
unfortunately it made absolutely no sense. Other than that
I came back here, ate my meatball sub, talked on the
internet with Ryan reading over my shoulder, played some
magic, watched a movie, etc. My weekends are starting to
suck.........

Today is superbowl sunday. I get to go to a party later,
yay......Tis all for now.

Just Remember: An idea is like life, once it is borne, if
not shared or encouraged, it dies and fades away forever.




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