~L

My Screwed Up Relationships
2003-01-26 05:53:28 (UTC)

And she puts on a smile.. while smelling the lavender

She does.. dontcha know.. smile that is.. to calm and
soothe herself..after listening talk to him talk about
her. I dont know how to cheer myself up. He gets all nuts
when I tell him about this guy hitting on me or that guy
hitting on me all the while he sleeps in her bed.. shares
her roof.. spends time with her.. I say nothing. Why is
that?
He assures me he isnt sleeping with her. While I'd like to
believe that my gut screams otherwise.. and it should. It
would be foolish to believe they werent and the thought of
that makes me ill. So very ill..
I have a migrane.. cant write much.. just enough to say..
Im here..
Im hanging on.. surviving.. all I know how to do..
and trying to enjoy this moment while it lasts.. fleeting
as it is.. I didnt choose to be here..
I simply found myself here..
~L




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