PrOudToBeAgOoDgIrl

My crazy life
2003-01-26 04:08:04 (UTC)

aaaaahhhhhh

Okay, i take back everything i said bout wesley..
EVERYTHING. heres the email he wrote me :

Well No thats not what all friends do. Unless thats how you
treat all your friends, only talking to them on your bad
days ignoring them on others. This has nothing to do with
the fact that you don't like me, I could care less. I never
said I didn't consider you a freind I just said you don't
act like one. So I guess now that you mention it... I don't
consider you a freind. Not anymore. Marty agree's completly
with me. You heard what he said. He asked "why are you
asking me? you never talk to me but now when wes blocks you
you do?" Well it's the same with me. You never talk to me
unless you are upset and for the record that is not what
friends do. Then when I pointed this out You call me a
Jackass? Ok well fine I don't care at all it's not like i
am loosing a friend because you realy never were my
friend.Lmao and you say my fault? Lol You are such a dumb
ass. Well any way for whatever reason Pd called you a bitch
he was right for doing so because you are. By the way don't
bother writing back because i am not going to waste my time
to answer it.

ISNT THAT FUCKING BULLSHIT!!!! OMG, well, forget him here
is the updated list of guys i like, and a short paragraph
simply phrasing why hes wrong for me.
Matt Bowie:
I like him so much. He is everything i look for in a guy.
except for one thing. He is a complete flirt. I mean, he is
the kind of guy every girl likes at least once in her life,
he is the guy that breaks her heart. He doesnt want a
girlfriend,. but he acts like he can flirt and rub up all
over me, and he expects me to just sit back and wait in
line?? oh. fuck no, that shit dont fly with me... I just
wish i could get over him.

Victor Civatte:
He just broke up with my ex friend sammie.. nuff said.
well in the end. the only guy who truly gives me
butterflies is Matt. Butterflies in my definition is that
feeling like your gonna be sick, and the feeling of
complete happiness all at once and in my case mixed in with
fear. fear of hurt. Fear of getting rejected. all that
bullshit. here are words to a song that completely get how
i feel.


You walk by and my heart beats
A thousand times at once it seems
And every time you look at me
I have to tell myself to breathe
With just a smile you capture me, and I start to melt
Emotions then take over me like I've never felt

I could tell me heart each time
It isn't love, you're just some guy
There's nothing there and what I feel
Is in my head, it isn't real
But I can't deny, can't even try
Cause I know inside, butterflies don't lie.

Is there a chance,
You could be mine?
If i let you see inside?
or do you love, somebody else?
should i keep this to myself?
I could risk a BROKEN HEART,
by telling you the truth,
Or i could keep my secret safe,
and when I see you,

I could tell me heart each time
It isn't love, you're just some guy
There's nothing there and what I feel
Is in my head, it isn't real
But I can't deny, can't even try
Cause I know inside, butterflies don't lie.

Once again, there you are,
anxiouness,
Nervous heart,
Butterflies fluttering,
can only mean one thing..
( CHORUS )




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