mediva

what a life
2003-01-25 02:48:17 (UTC)

Friends

Lately i feel that my friends dont wanna hang out w. me
any more,.. i dont think i did anything wrong and if i did
i wish they would tell me,...


Its like they plan lil outings w.out me and it feels like
secrets are being kept,... i dont know why they are like
this,...


Exspecially Marlana,... i dont know what to think of her
anymore,.. its like i wanna be her friend but im sick of
being the one that listens all the time,.. and when i
listen she critize like shes my therapst,... i dont want
therapst for a friend i want someone that will listen md
lift me up,.. not try to change me in the way they want me
to be,.. i like myself,..(well sometimes),... anyway if i
dont like something about me ill change it,... i dont
wanna be pushed,...


Sometimes i wish i can just go into there heads and see
what they really think about me,... i dont know what my
own friends think about me,.. to think of it i dont know
what my own bf thinks about me,... i wonder what kind of
side comments they have about me,...


Who knows maybe im just being really paranoid but i cant
help but think like this,... oh well,... but i do hope
some thing really change and FAST,... cuz im sick of being
home by myself,....:(




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