madeline

September 15th 2001

"Do you believe there is a part of yourself, deep inside in
your mind, with things you don't want other people to see?
During a session when I'm inside, I get to see those
things."

Hey I haven't written in so long. I guess that's probably
because I've been so depressed lately. Brian is coming to
see me on Tuesday. He is going to stay for almost a week.
That makes me really happy. He was suppose to be here on
Thursday (yesterday). But because of all that has happened
with the attacks, his flight was cancelled. Hmmm... life
has been pretty uneventful. It rained today. It was
absolute insanity. I haven't seen rain since the last time
I was in Boston at orientation. It has actually been
really cold. I love it!! I really enjoy the cold
weather. I got to get all bundled up and put on my cute
warm clothes. And the sad thing is... I wasn't warm
enough. Everyone is out partying right now. I am sitting
in my room watching Ferris Bueller's Day Off. Everyone in
my school went to a vigil in the evening. I didn't go. I
don't know. I can't imagine just sitting and watching
everyone crying and being all emotional. The only reason
I'm upset over all this terrorist stuff is because it kept
me from seeing my favorite person in the whole world. I
think you know who I'm talking about. He was really upset
too. I think he was mostly just exhausted and he tried so
hard to see me. And everything fell through last minute.
He called me and sounded so sad. And then I felt sad. It
was just messy. I didn't sleep last night. Hmmm... what
else is new?? I went to the grocery store today. It is
sooo kewl. You scan your own food instead of having the
checker do it. I had fun. Needless to say, I'm addicted.
I bought ice cream, cheezits, gatorade, and some dinner
stuff. The quesodilla was nasty. It was greasy. So i
threw it away and moved on to the chicken fingers. Those
were good. I ate only one and then had a friendly cup
(sundae in a cup). That's basically all I ate today and I
feel stuffed to the point of being sick. I don't get it.
That's like nothing!! Oh well. I best be getting back to
the movie. I'm going to try to write more often. But with
Bri coming it may be more hectic than normal. I'm sooo
excited. Woohoo, we're going to go see the movie O.

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