I'm a girl, not a band!!!
2003-01-24 00:52:03 (UTC)

I'm Scared

I see myself becoming apathetic, and am scared that I am
not as in control as I thought I was. I am becoming
comfortable with my life as it is because it is easy, and I
don't like that at all. I know all the advice that will be
given; work hard! Just do it! Get up and go! But I can't.
Maybe I can, but I just won't. Why you ask? I have no idea.
I really don't know why. I got the promotion at work. And
that is good. And I'm happy and proud. But I don't want to
be there for the rest of my life. I know what I want to do,
but I'm beginning to doubt myself. I think I've doubted
myself all along, but was better at pretending it wasn't
there. *sigh* I don't know what to do. This is not good.
Not good at all.