Dream out loud

The Once Lotus
2003-01-22 23:27:28 (UTC)

sickened incognito

On the mourn of this day i awoke to an extreme weakness
that seemed to plauge my body....only my body though. i
crawled out of bed and was met by my father. he said "ya
know it is 14 degrees out there and youll most likely die
if you go outside" these words were enough to banish me
back to my lair. so then i slept and dreampt the longest
dream and the most beautifull one i could. it was of my
life thus far and what it may be like in the future. i saw
the innocence and the darkness the rebirth and the wonder.
and i came to a sudden realization that the best times of
my life (which has been quite eventfull mind you) was in
the last month because....well i feel complete somehow.
this may seem as a foolish ramble to the many of you but
to me it is a story and before i was reading my life and
now i write it. my illness of the day has no effect on my
spirits because the only thing that feels weak is my body.
my heart and soul are quite strong. i called lauren today
when i finally awoken at around 5:00p.m. and her voice (as
usaul) seemed to sooth me and melt away my ailments. but
sadly she had to escape to her place of employment. and so
no it is 6:26p.m. and i patiently await 11:00p.m. for then
i may hear her again or possibly even see her and that
would be the light of the world to me

but for now im just passing time that is passing me




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