pppmntgrl

Sex and the Suburbs
2003-01-22 03:44:44 (UTC)

2:30 AM phone call

I know I called him first. Like, four times, actually,
because I'm a dork. I knew he was busy. I know he's
seeing someone else. But, he called me back, probably just
to rub it in that he was out, seeing someone else, and that
he had "done what he could" for us and the worst part is I
think he's not lying to himself. I really shouldn't even
start en entry about my exboyfriend this way. I know I'm
far too tired to get into enough detail tonite, but suffice
it to say, I nearly made an even bigger dork of myself last
night, almost admitting my ridiculous fantasy that he would
wait for me forever, or worse, ask me to marry him, that he
would tear down doors for me, and never let me go.
Instead, I got "Well, I asked you three times if you wanted
to get back together and you said no so what was I supposed
to do?" I hope his new girlfriend contracts ebola. I
really do. Any person with half a brain shoul see he's
going to rebound off her, and that he's still in love with
me. Or is he? Am I wishful thinking again?




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