RazorBlade

MidnightMayhem
2003-01-22 00:22:19 (UTC)

I smile....

I smile.
I go to school
I smile
I sit in class
I smile
I talk to people
I smile
I walk around appearing happy
I smile
I put on my mask
I smile.

I watch him from the corner of my eye, making it so discrit
no one can tell. I run and i talk to him, I smile and
laugh. No one knows the torture im in. I try and divert my
attention from him to other boiz, but sometimes it doesnt
work. No one else adds up. I mean sure im fed up with him
and his drugs. And sometimes i find it completely
intolerable to be around him because of drugs. But theres
so much to him than that and i cant forget that. But i can
tell you, i already dont like him as much as i did. Its
lessening. I mean sure i still like him but not as much and
thats an imporvment. He needs to lay off the meth tho. Him
discovering meth was a bad bad thing. but watever.

i got to be Rogers partner today. He doesnt talk though.
Hes like one of those pissed at the world punk rawk boiz.
But hes very cute, and i will find get to him. That will be
my goal. I ate lunch with Andrew(shea) that was fun. Hes
cute. he was really happy today, i luv it when boiz r all
happy and giddy. Its really cute.
But hes no logan...




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