babycakes4ev

why read this incredibly stupid shit...?
2003-01-21 05:04:44 (UTC)

u can try to resist...try to hide frm my kisss...

mood: boreddd
theme song: "one way or another" blondie

yea didnt write this wknd not 2 much happened lets see on
friday after exams me and siggy and tiffany and kim and q
went to the mall for a while...a long while we gave q a
makeover haha he looks hottt...he was a hottie 2 begin w/
now but he looks i dunno something bout how he looks
now..its hot but yea uhmm then after that me and q and kim
went to visit jessica and roger and we hung out and went
out w/ them 2 dinner it was nice to see jessica i miss
her!! shes so fun and roger is such a sweetheart they are
adorable 2gether its hilarious they act like their married
prolly cuz they are living 2gether but yea thenn on
saturday i had work and then me and q took sarah vance,
mckel, chris (sb's bf) and sb to the battle of the bands to
see fusion who totally rawked and def. moved to the
semifinals and wut not but it was really crowded and there
were alot of ppl i knew there surprisingly i saw dee there
w/ eric and john and i got to meet them her and john r so
cute but she doesnt think he likes her but i dunno they r
cute i just want dani to be happy again lets see thennn
after battle of the bands q came over and we just hung out
and wut not watched a really lame movie then i took him
home then yesterday i worked then me and emily (frm work)
and her friend amanda and leah frm work went to play pool
and q came along it was fun. emily is so funny haha i swear
if she wasnt at work i would like kill myself cuz everyone
else besides jill are really fucking weird but yea uhmm
then 2day me and my mom went and i got a new cell phone :)
then my mommy and i went to lunch at panera and then we
went and saw a movie..the hours it was really weird and i
got kinda confused but yea it was depressing too like it
made me wanna go home and kill myself haha then i went out
w/ q and his friend alex who was super nice and we played
pool and got food and watched a movie at my house i dunno i
feel like i cant be w/ q enough lately like everytime he
leaves i want him to come back...i miss him b4 hes even
gone...i dunno i feel like i did when we first started goin
out its craziness lol i like it tho like when the
relationship still has like is spontanity ( is that a word?
lol) i just i dunno bleh i miss him and yea lets see wut
else is new...i dunno lately ive been wanting to lose
weight but i like i dunno im really gunna try hard to eat
less and eat more healthy cuz i eat really bad and i figure
what ill do is ill pack myself something everyday that isnt
very many calories and ill save the money my parents give
me for lunch then ill have reward money for when i start to
lose weight i bought a skirt this wknd that was purposly
sorta tight that way i will go out and spend my saved money
when the skirt fits losely like i am serious this time im
determined no matter wut it takes ill fucking smoke a pack
a day if it curbs my appetite enuf that i wont be hungry
ill take diet pills i wont eat period i am determined this
time everytime i wanna eat something ill just picture my
stomach in pictures where i look chubby and ill like think
of how i wanna look...im gunna like get pictures and put
them on my binder so when i think about food ill put a fat
picture of me next to a picture of a thin model and ill
never wanna eat ill wanna throw up rather than eat...i just
have to trick my mind back into its thin stage like in 7th
and 8th grade when i was able to go w/o eating for a while
and lose a quick 10lbs in a week and a half i just have to
be determined and im gunna i wanna make it so that i dont
feel stupid standing next to any of my friends cuz rite now
i feel like a disgusting piece of fat meat when im w/ my
friends...bleh but im gettin depressed so im gunna stop
myself now but thats just whats new so ill write again
prolly 2morrow later gator




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