Alley

Alley
2003-01-21 02:55:02 (UTC)

1.20.03

Nothing exciting really happened today, i stayed at
shannons house last night and then we hung out at her house
all of today. Its alwayz wonderful to hang out with her,
she alwayz knows how to make me laugh, she is like the
greatest heh. We practiced flags. talked about guyz,
family, friends, life in general. After that i came home
and layed around all day. I am starting to worry about a
few things in life, simple things, like what is going to
happen and things like that. I have also been having alot
of "what if's" in my mind latly, like what if i would have
gave this guy a chance, and what if i never did
this..things like that. I kno its still only Jan., but V
day is comming up quickly, A time for lovers to come
together and express true feelings to one another. I am
looking at everyone else and how happy they are with all of
thier relationships, and then i look @ me, its like im
alone, I talk to all my friends and the boyfriend issue
alwayz comes into play, i never really say n e thing to
anyone but it kinda makes me wanna crawl into a corner and
cry sometimes :(.. I mean is there something wrong with me,
something that keeps me from being happy with someone of
the opposit sex?, or am i just that much of a bitch? I am
alwayz trying to find love and im trying to be happy, but
it alwayz seems to happen that, i love a guy, he doesnt
love me back, a guy loves me, and all i see is friendship,
I think im starting to hate this time of year right now, i
kno that you dont NEED someone, but i just feel for some
reasons that i do, i do need someone to be there for me, to
cry to, and just share all my true feelings with, i mean i
can do that with a best friend, but it just means more to
me when those feelings are shared with a boyfriend
y'kno?...i kno i am just rambling on about stupid shit that
nobody really honestly gives a flying fuck about, so i'll
just leave it at this....Love is the best feeling in the
world..butterflies in ur tummy everytime that person walks
by, to love someone, to be loved, its great.....As of now i
dont have that :-/....Night Everyone, im happy you chose to
read my senceless bullshit (lol)
*~Alley~*




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