Virgo

Mismatched thoughts of a Virgo
2001-09-13 08:49:15 (UTC)

Scared...

Have you ever been so scared of yourself... scared of
hurting yourself because you can... scared of what you
might do... have you ever looked back at what you thought
that day and cried? I am like that right now i wont let
myself cry but a guy told me his life was pointless and it
got me thinking about mine... its not right when you a
little girl not even 10 yet to have voices telling you to
open car doors on high ways and asking you "wonder if youll
go to heaven or hell? lets find out!!" then later in your
life just barley into puberty not even there yet a
beautiful woman comes to your dreams MAKING you give her
handsom men to have sex with and since shes in your head
making you watch and if you refused you would get
nightmares... Now its less demanding less direct now it
just trys to get me to kill myself telling me how beautiful
or how fun or how nice it will be... ever have a voice in
your head tell you to shove sissors up your nose into your
brain... its sad when you cant even trust yourself any
more... and thats probably why i want to cry and why i
depend on people so much... i can trust them when its so
hard to trust myself...




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