SlinkyheadRant

My Depression In Words
2003-01-20 19:26:27 (UTC)

Stupid stupid Love thinger.

Listening to:
Colorblind--Counting Crows

Dear Jamie,

God its been so long. I meant to write to you a while back.
ALot has happened. Well I'm falling for another guy. And I
don't know if hes gay or bi but hes one or the other. And
he is dating a lesbian. I know its fucked up. I hate it!
They are ruining eachothers lives, they don't care about
eachother anymore. Hes just her crutch. He is her legs when
she has none. He does anything and everything for her. What
does he get in return? A suicide threat. She threatens to
kill herself all the time and I hate her so much for that
that I want to just get in her face and yell and scream at
her and she is such an immature little baby and she is
going to read this and hate me forever but this is how I
feel and she has to get over it now! You are so horrible to
that boy and I have held back and haven't told you this
cause I know it would hurt you! But its the TRUTH! You use
him. You think hes sexy and thats it. Hes your little sex
god and if he ever cheats on you I'm not surprized cause
you won't give it to him. SOMEONE ELSE WILL! You bother me
so much with you petty little problems that I can't take it
anymore! You force this man to clean your room!!!!!! Its
like hes your slave! AND HE SHOULDN'T BE! He needs to be
cared for, not forced! AND DON"T FUCKING THREATEN TO KILL
YOURSELF!...if your gonna do it get it the hell over
with!!!!! GOD! and alex, if your reading this, I don't know
how I feel about you. I just want to hold you and I want to
clean your room and do all these things for you that she
doesn't. But at the same time I don't know if its sympathy
or love. I can't figure it out, its too confusing. And
ashleigh...I don't hate you...I just hate the things you
do! I've never been more angry in my life and you know I
wouldn't ever say these things but you go to far! YOU GO
TOO FUCKING FAR!!!. ::feels horrible and refreshed all at
the same time:: ::closes eyes:: I need a man.


Good bai forever diary. I will write again but it won't be
me anymore, it will be someone else.




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