Crazy Girl

Diving Under
2003-01-20 05:07:37 (UTC)

Crying

I sat in my room for over an hour, crying, listening to a
song and going over the thoughts in my head. When I finally
stopped crying for the first time, I listened to the song
and started crying all over again. It made me cry harder
then I was at certain parts like when they said army and
our love will never die and the fact that the girl lost the
man that she loved at the end.
You have to understand the weird situation that I am in. It
is also a very scary one too. The man I love is signing up
for the army and it didn’t take affect until now. With all
this talk about war, I am very scared. I feel helpless
even. I mean, I have never been away from him longer then
two weeks since we have been together. A few hours is agony
for me. I am so scared I am going to lose him.
The song just makes me cry thinking about all of this and
the fact that I could lose him. Dead! What would I do? What
could I do? I don’t even know what to do now.
My thoughts are making me a wreck and I am so scared of it.
Losing everything and everyone I have ever loved.
I also found out that they are keeping my mom in the navy.
They might even send her far away. She was supposed to be
out in December. They are taking her from me! I could lose
her too!
I just don’t know. I don’t know how to talk to anyone about
this.




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