.Scream Your Dream.
Bring us your Tired
so this is the second time im writing this one, bein that
my mom picked up the phone and my entry was deleted when i
was signed off line, so anyway, earlier, i was thinking,
maybe im just paronoid about emily and shes not using me
and its just my imagination, well, i get home from my
fathers (after being disgusted with his tasteless comments
and jokes) that i arrive to her asking me a favor, which
was to babysit for her tommrow afternoon, suprise suprise.
ok well i guess im not paronoid, so yeah, thats it, im done
with that shit, in other news, i broke down for the frist
time in all of this chaos, tonight, we set out white
candles on our front step and i go upstairs to check my
mail, my mom's humming amazing grace, and i get an email
from rocky and he says him and his family is ok but the
wife of a friend of his is missing, all day ive heard about
friends of my mom who are gone, but i guess this just hit
me harder, then i got frustrated and angry, and of course
blew up at the most undeserving people. i apologize for
that. sara got weird on me today
when i asked her, her last name because she says andy
mistook her for me, and i wanted to ask someoen about it,
but whatver, it makes me sad that i talk to clint about
such personal things, it makes me feel like were becomming
closer freinds, thats no good, it wont end well, i
guarantee it. my throat and face hurts from crying, maybe
i am emo after all, haha (joke) i still have homework and
shit to do, im really messed up sometimes, i think i need
to start sleeping more and not talking to so many "friends"
not frieds .... Was (not was) ha. yeah. ok thats all.