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ramblings
2003-01-19 09:05:12 (UTC)

HELP: will or jon

okay.. well... the question(s): do i have a chance with
jon? or should i just be will's buddy? answer/evidence:
i don't know. i KNOW jon and i had some sort of chemistry
or something going on.. my goodness. i mean.. we clicked
and he was here for 2 days. I know will wants to just use
me. i mean.. as bluntly as it sounds. I like will.. but..
i think, hell, i know, i need quite a bit more. i think i
may even deserve it! i just don't know if jon felt the way
i did. i mean.. he made it kinda obvious about the whole
chemistry thing when he couldn't quite keep his hands off
me hee hee. however.. i barely know the guy. i mean.. we
talk and stuff online quite regularly... but i've
physically seen him 2 days!!! am i that despirate or do we
actually have chemistry and a chance??? what should i
do??? he's mike's best friend... but i don't know what
code of "guys being friends" deal i'm going to break and a
fool of myself i'm going to make if i possibly persue this
possible thing with jon. aaaaiiiieeeee... and then there's
will.. he just wants to be buddies... take a wild guess
what buddies are.. i feel like an ass saying "i don't want
to lose our friendship", but a guy said at a party
once.. "no girl wants to be a 'friend with benefits'." and
i sure as hell agree.




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