Angie

These are my thoughts...
2003-01-17 16:49:26 (UTC)

January 17, 2003

I got my pap-smear on the 15th, Chris & my 1 month
anniversary. YEAH - baby! Well, the Health Dept. sucks,
please note to never-ever go there again. I had the exam,
got poked & proded, forced to have a gonorhea and clymidia
tests. And then they charged me $131!!! Full price. I
could have saw Dr. Anderson - that's what pisses me off.
Dr. Anderson would have been nice about the whole thing.
And he would have given me free samples of pills. Well,
when I am done with these, I will go see him. I suppose I
could get my back aligned if I don't need anything else.

The other night Chris was soooo late coming over, that was
the 14th. I called and he was all, "what's going on?" and
I told him that he was sooo late. And he was appologizing
all over the place. As it turns out, he was very
depressed. His friend Patrick announced that his goal is
to be in Chicago by the end of the year. And he wasn't
able to get ahold of that guy at CMU. I felt so bad for
him. He said it was ok, and I told him it wasn't. He said
that he doesn't like it, but it has to be ok. I said, no -
you have to be supportive, it isn't ok. It sucks ass, just
like w/ Peggy. At least Chicago isn't as far away as
Arizona. But he was really hurt by that.

We fooled around a bit, but he wasn't able to keep
interest, so we cuddled. He said he was sorry, and I
looked him in the eye and told him that he means so much
more to me than just sex. He smiled and thanked me, and
said that I mean more to him than that too. I do think
he's falling in love w/ me too. I hope so, because I'm
totally head-over-heels for this boy.

Hopefully tonight I get to see him, he's due back this
evening. I do miss him when he's not around. I need to go
shopping tonight, and then I need to finish my laundry and
do some rearranging of furniture. I think for V-day I am
going to bring the mattress into the living room (the king
one) so we can laydown & watch the Power-Puff Girls Movie.
Peggy is teaching me to make home-made noodles tomorrow,
and I will make that to go with the white sauce.

I'm so excited. All this to do for Chris, and I know he'll
love it. And, I've never felt the need to do any of this
for Dale. He never did let me know when he appreciated
something. I know Chris sees it, and knows that it's all
out of love for him. He likes that. This man even
appreciates it when I shave my legs.

I like being appreciated, it makes me want to be more
generous. To give him all of my heart. I really hope I
don't get it broken.

Angie




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