The Lost Soul

Just This Side Of Reality
2003-01-15 13:01:34 (UTC)

Stressed and diseased.

I really need to calm down. I've been strung up like a
poster for the past two days. Sharon, a very good friend
from college last year, asked me to helpo her with her
assignments for uni. I agreed and I seriously wish I'd
thought it over a little more carefully. I'm, more than
happy to help her, but I now fully appreciate the streeses
of uni.

I'm not going to be modest here, I am one of the brightest
bulbs in the box, but my stress tolerance level is so low,
it's underground. My dear mother, bless her heart, is of
the opinion that I cannot handle university because of the
way I am right now and I tend to ageree. But everyone else
is on at me to "better myself".

What is it with this world? Most people seem to be of the
opinion that if you don't go to uni when you're smart
enough to, that you're wasting your life. Not going to Uni
doesn't make you a bad person and if there's anyone out
there who's always trying new things, it's me. I just
don't see why i have to go to ubi to learn about things
when there are plenty of other rescources.

This is what the fight with my best friend was about at
the weekend. She says she won't stand by and watch
me "waste" my life. Little does she realise that I do not
ask for a lot out of life other than to love and be loved.
My problems, I believe, have stemmed from the fact that I
have never been contented with my lot. Now that I am I
just want to be respected for that!

On a completely unrelated topic, I have acoldsore on my
NOSE! I have only ever had those on my lips before. What
is it with me? Stressed and diseasded!

Out for now,

The Lost Soul
xxx




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