lee_the_messed_up_punk

my #ucked up life
2003-01-15 05:20:20 (UTC)

twitch

11:03pm Tuesday night

I feel strange. After trying desperately to sleep I
sit here, half asleep, half an hour before work.

My left eye began to twitch yesterday and has really
been getting on my nerves. Heh, my nerves are getting on
my nerves...wtf.

I haven't felt this crappy in a long time. My body is
sore, I have a stomach ake and everything seems impossible,
including writing in here.

Since my last entry a lot has happened but I feel too
fucked up to write about it. Yesterday my mind was set on
moving to Toronto but today I feel confused and unreal. I
guess I'm just frightened...I don't know what to do.

I wish life was easier...

Today I met with my brother and his girlfriend to
discuss my plans and he said that he'd live here while I
was away. I think my age is getting to me...the relization
of what is is. It's a scary thing.

While I was eating with them everything was distorted.
I felt as if the world didn't exist and just wanted
everyone and everything to disappear. I wanted to scream
but didn't. Instead, I just sat, tense and confused.

What am I going to do?

I'm not looking forward to work.

lee

So much to think about.

I hope things work out for the better...




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