Morbid Slut

never getting better

you now i think i have realized that my life isn't going to
get any better. Let's see over the past year i have
suffered my mom's death, a good friend's death, moving in
with my asshole dad and back stabbing friends. isn't life
grand? i really can't stand my dad. he takes all his anger
out on me and its not like i am not fucked up enough. i am
on fucking anti-depressants as it is and i don't think they
are cutting it. i want someone to shoot me. cause i am too
much of a pussy to do it myself. i don't know what i have
done to deserve all this shit but i can't take anymore. he
was mad at me and slammed his car door cause i forgot to
run an errand for him...so the window glass broke. which
was kinda funni but only made him madder at me for nothing.
and i get tired of the name calling that he doesn't realize
he says. fuck it all fuck him. i am going back to smoking
pot...at least then i can drowned it out for 7 more months
until i am free. damn fuck shit if only i could say it to
his face without being killed....

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