UnKn0wn01

Printed On A Piece Of Paper
2003-01-14 10:59:18 (UTC)

Things I Had To Think....And Keep To Myself...


hey i know i havent write in a long time. skool reopened.
things are going really TIRING. and confusing...

ive been keeping a secret about my "problem" from my frens
and i know that i wont tell them anything until something
really comes out out of it. if not im just going to zip my
mouth and pretend it never happened. its easier to forget
something when there's nobody there to remind you abt it.

i dont know wats going to happen on his end tho coz most of
his frens knows about it. but i know thats the least of my
concern. im just worried that if, HIM knows. i mean he's
like a brother to me but i know wat he's going to say....i
know wat they're all going to say and the point is i know
that they are particially right. thats why i have this
nagging feeling that everything that is happening right now
is WRONG at some point of it.

i mean he doesnt have the most clean record ever. i know i
should give people a second chance...i am really. trying
hard as i might there's still that feeling that this thing
is a joke and will be remembered. why cant it be a joke and
be forgotten? and wat if something did happened? and then
its' not a joke and its not going to be forgotten? wat am i
going to do then?

i know i dont really care wat people say but my frens and
HIM are the only opinion that is worth taking for. i love
my frens and ive been with them longer than anyone else, so
if they dont like the guy i should step out. i know that
they are spposed to be happy for me but i dont want them to
HAVE TO be happy with me...while waiting for the first
disaster to strike.

so in the mist of confusion im still going on as a normal
person with TONS of homeowork! good god! i just remembered!
i have like a script to write and a 250 words essay!
great!! heh...okays i betta be off..

i just want to reminnd myself that if there's no one to
tell...and nowhere to go...there's always writing to make
everything a lil bit clearer..=)

-ally-




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