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Darkness Falls
2003-01-14 06:31:09 (UTC)

The new year....is it an accomplishment?

So,i havent been writing in a while. I had a pretty good
vacation, nothing special, except a lot of time with my
girlsfriend....umm...well, this past weekend....she said
she wanted some space. She said she needed to find out
who she was, and in doing so, for now, she would have
to...let us go..at least for a while.
This thing that she's doing, finding herself, Im 100%
for it....if it makes her happy then im right by her side,
supporting her. But...she really did let us go....Im her
friend now...god...it still hurts....my mind is never
going to be centered on anything but her, then again it
was always like that since I met her. She still loves me,
i know that, and I love her too....but I'm scared....i
dont want her to leave...but I want her to be happy. This
is one of those times where parents are supposed to offer
support....yeah right. None of that here. I tried
talking to my mom about the whole thing, but it doesnt
seem to work....nothing does anymore.
Im still here for my girlfriend...umm i
guess..friend....but Im still here for her regardless.
She said that we will be able to get back together one
day, and I believe her....Im just scared..that by some
element in her life, and my luck....she'll be taken away
from me. and it hurts so much...to the center of my
heart...to imagine that. WHY SHOULD ANYONE HAVE
TO!?!?!?!?!?!? IMAGINE THE ONE THING SO SPECIAL TO THEM
IN THEIR LIFE BEING SNATCHED AWAY IN FRONT OF THEIR VERY
EYES AND CANT DO SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!......im praying
everything will be ok....i want to get through this with
her....i want to be with her, more than anything else.
Please, please pray for me and her, that we may be
together again, happy, no pain.........please?




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