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SkipYd'NiNj@t0tu$
2003-01-13 03:11:26 (UTC)

sunday work

sup people?....well wtf .... i cant even get the wycked
shyt two days ina row...well the otha day i was happy
tired, n feelin shitty...n well tonight im feelin
incredibly shitty.i dont kno wats goin on, my chest is all
fuckd up..i wish it would make up its damn mind so i could.
but owell. i workd today...like usual. but it was aiight.
no complaints xcept that i feel like im 50 already. My body
is fallin apart.its kinda kool, but scary at the same time.
I talkd alot with the Carolyn today...again... so that was
koolness aiight, its kool ta juss be able to talk to her,
cuz its like... i SERIOUSLY thought id fuck up things by
now, eitha by being so shy that ima ass, or juss cuz i got
shit for S.E. that i would juss completely ignore her in
general. But its goin good so far, cuz atleast were
talking. _awesome_ . She asked me something today, n i was
i told her something, that not alot of people know. I feel
utterly wack'd about telling her....it isnt cuz im all pist
that i did, but im terrified that she'll think differently
of things (me), and im unsure as to why i was so easy about
telling her. I mean.. ya i say alot of things on here.. but
if you kno me, then you kno that you dont kno alot about
me....if that makes sense then you are a good friend of
mine... but i seriously dont share alot with neone. there
are very few ...not even a hand full of people that kno
alot about me, me now, my past, n my thoughts of things. it
takes a shitload to get me to talk. But today, i cant say
that it took nething. i dont kno how to describe it (no im
not sayin i love her, pull your heads outta your
asses...wow). but i am sayin that there is juss something
bout her that i can trust. shes freekIN narly dudez. Its
kool. but Isaac def pist me off today, bc i have done alot
to make sure that she doesnt find out that i have a crush
on her. But today he kept insisting on telling her that me
n her lookd good together today, n he kept asking if me n
her were hooking up...n that sorta thing. nothing big.. but
it suckd that he kept saying it, cuz i think that she was
starting to be all like "oh jeeze...does this kid like me"
kinda thing. n i dont want her to kno that cuz we already
had talkd about crushes n stuff like that, n she admitted
that she hasta be friends with the kid befo she even thinks
about liking him. So its like....FUCCCKk!!!! jeeezm Isaac.
do you people get wat im tryin to say? Its
like....EEEERRRR... fiawe[oi hgdifg;...= shit. but its
okay, cuz she was totally kool to me afta that too. its
weird. i feel likea lil kid all ova again, n its all
like 'yay'. but then again. i dont wanna get my hopes up,
cuz like i said, were juss bearly getting to kno eachotha,
there is a huge diff between buds and friends, and a settle
diff between a crush, and liking someone..that settle diff
is friendship. n thats exactly wat i want outta this.
Despite if i start to care more. i want a friendship outta
this, cuz from wat i have heard, n seen, n been shown, she
is a very good friend to those she cares about. n thats
hard to find. ...well ill stop blabbbing bout her, cuz im
sure its all like "shut up Rob" kinda deal. But ya. OWELL!.
haha i can blab about her on this all i want cuz she'll
neva find out about it, cuz it juss wont happen.
hahahahahahahahahhahahaha so FUCKYA'LL!!!! =). this is so
beautiful. .........its scaring me. well aiight i feel like
crud right now. so ima hit the sack in like 5. (unless she
gets on..ill talk to her for alil :-p),....yeee-a.. well
aiight

Wicked Shit of the Day:
NE DAMN JOKERS CARD!!! i have gotten every damn song
n trinkit of all the joker cards onto my comp, so that shit
has been blearin since i woke up this morning, n since i
got home.... so HELL FUCKIN BOOOYYYAAA!!!...

WORDS TA B SPOKEN!!!:
to the bitches: "...BITCH i luv you, but kno you
gotta die, DIIIEEE, gurl you kno i luv you, but now you
gotta die, GURL YOU KNO I LUV YOU!!..." ~ICP wid ODB
to the loved one: "OH BABY I LIKE IT RAW!!!!"
to the juggalo family: "when the wagons come, will
ya let me on, will ya let me on?, when the wagons come, plz
let me on, when the wagons come, will ya let me on, plz let
me on!"
....... this is the Skiperto... n im off like a prom dress
the night bfo prom (cuz we all kno thats when it goes down
FO RILL)

...the last thing i gots ta say bfo i head
out...... if you reading this. seriously think about if you
kno me, can you answer a ?' that i have for you if
asked?.... wat about your feelings? can you be honest with
me? or would you still like me if i was completely honest
with you?...... the reason im not is cuz im afraid that
people will realize shit about me, that i dont even like to
think about,...n im afriad that if i did tell you all about
me that maybe the last half-ass-ounce of self esteem i have
will be shredded down into nothingness by you. Not that you
would say nething, its wat you wouldnt say, n the time that
you wouldnt want to be there with me, that would kill me
more. I dont lie to you or neone. I dont sit here n tell
you one thing n mean others. i dont tell you nething, cuz i
dont want you to walk away. .... the last time i felt
comfortable with someone i lost that last ounce of self
esteem that i had... cuz they walkd away from me, they
didnt look back, n they didnt eva care....thats it fo now...




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