George's Ice Princess
The Saga Begins
Our twisted relationship
Princess (03:11:04 PM): does cheese enchiladas sound good
for dinner?
George (03:13:02 PM): it does, actually.
George (03:13:14 PM): are they four cheese?
Princess (03:14:02 PM): well no, I only have 2 cheeses in
my fridge at the moment
Princess (03:14:05 PM): but they are from SCRATCH
Princess (03:14:06 PM):
Princess (03:14:13 PM): does that make up for the missing
cheeses?
George (03:13:51 PM): *gasp* are you saying that Taco
Bell's AREN'T?!???!?!
Princess (03:14:30 PM): tee hee
Princess (03:14:57 PM): I'm saying that I would personally
shred the cheese for you... assemble the enchiladas from
ingredients found in my refrigerator and pantry... cook
them ...
Princess (03:15:04 PM): I'll stop short of feeding them to
you
Princess (03:15:08 PM): that's taking things a little far
George (03:15:05 PM): yeah... I'm fairly capable of
feeding myself.
Princess (03:15:51 PM): I mean I can see in certain
situations...
George (03:15:23 PM): that's not a romantic food to feed
to someone else.
Princess (03:16:02 PM): but I just can't see enchiladas as
a... yeah that
George (03:15:34 PM): see?
Princess (03:16:11 PM): I do see
George (03:15:56 PM): nice being on the same wavelength.
Princess (03:16:33 PM): yeah
Princess (03:16:39 PM): too bad I think your lifestyle is
weird
Princess (03:16:47 PM): we could really be something
George (03:16:25 PM): what do you mean?!
Princess (03:17:09 PM): what do you MEAN, what do I mean?
George (03:16:42 PM): and I know for a fact we could be
something.
Princess (03:17:22 PM): I don't
George (03:16:52 PM): why is my lifestyle weird?
Princess (03:17:27 PM): I still have criteria
George (03:16:55 PM):
Princess (03:17:42 PM): I mean, you meet LOTS of the ones
that are important
Princess (03:17:43 PM): hee hee
Princess (03:17:46 PM):
Princess (03:17:51 PM): but there are others that I can't
see you fitting under
George (03:17:19 PM): explain.
George (03:17:31 PM): I'm in five kids to feed and no time
mode now.
George (03:17:35 PM): I want to know now.
Princess (03:18:09 PM): you're in five kids, eh?
George (03:17:40 PM):
Princess (03:18:24 PM): I still go to church nearly every
week, and I want a guy who wants to go with me because
it's important to HIM...
Princess (03:18:29 PM): not just to make me happy, you
know?
George (03:18:01 PM): I would do that.
Princess (03:18:47 PM): I need a home without parties in it
George (03:18:14 PM): I've thought for a long time that I
SHOULD be going.
Princess (03:18:50 PM):
George (03:18:31 PM): I'd LOVE a home without parties in
it.
Princess (03:19:40 PM): you still drink a little too much
to make me comfortable
Princess (03:19:59 PM): and then there is the whole other
thing that I'm just gonna make you scream at me
George (03:19:43 PM): I do that because I've no one to
account to other than myself. If I had someone again...
I've already sworn that I'd give it up.
George (03:19:46 PM): what other thing?
Princess (03:20:27 PM): the whole dual identity thing
Princess (03:20:38 PM): I don't approve of the way your
alter ego lives
George (03:20:23 PM): meaning you don't like what I say on
my lyrics.
Princess (03:21:00 PM): well YEAH
George (03:20:39 PM): even if it gets me fat paid?
Princess (03:21:14 PM): can you imagine trying to explain
that to Cindi???
Princess (03:21:20 PM): yeah, even if
George (03:20:48 PM): to where you would NEVER have to
work again?
Princess (03:21:30 PM): again, even if
George (03:21:02 PM): you could spend every day out the
year doing whatever you wanted with her?
Princess (03:21:59 PM): to me, they're silly and 'bad'
George (03:21:28 PM): she could go to any school she
wanted?
Princess (03:22:15 PM): I can't even begin to express to
you how deeply offended she would be if she ever heard them
George (03:21:53 PM): so she doesn't hear them, then.
Princess (03:22:31 PM): and when she DOES
Princess (03:22:33 PM): ?
George (03:22:07 PM): and if she heard them on the
radio... they'd be the edited cuts.
Princess (03:23:01 PM): and until you get 'fat paid'
Princess (03:23:02 PM): what then?
George (03:23:00 PM): there's no need for an explanation.
Princess (03:23:36 PM): you know I'm not going to move
there anytime in the very near future, and I know you're
not going to move here...
George (03:23:13 PM): I don't see why she'd hear them
until I was famous.
Princess (03:23:50 PM): I suppose
Princess (03:23:54 PM): that's a good point
George (03:23:25 PM): and then, they'd be the watered down
versions.
Princess (03:24:21 PM): you just have to understand that
the thought of you and me doesn't fit into my little plan
Princess (03:24:25 PM): not that I have a little plan
anymore
George (03:23:54 PM): it's like... if I sent you a cd of
my stuff today, you wouldn't be listening to it at seven
in the evening.
Princess (03:24:40 PM): haven't had one since oh... about
6 months after I got married
Princess (03:24:56 PM): how 'bout if you just disregard
everything I just said
Princess (03:24:58 PM): okay?
Princess (03:25:04 PM): we'll just keep goign like we're
going
George (03:24:31 PM): I dunno...
George (03:24:37 PM): you just got deep.
Princess (03:25:19 PM): dang blastit
George (03:25:05 PM): and I came with good reasons and
explanations for your concerns... which should concern
ME... but still...
Princess (03:25:49 PM): but still nothing
Princess (03:25:52 PM): I didnt' but still
George (03:25:24 PM): still deep.
Princess (03:26:11 PM): I just said you had good points
and then admitted that my whole little plan became null
and void some time ago
Princess (03:26:20 PM): I should just move down there and
be with you
George (03:25:53 PM): that's the reader's digest version,
but okay.
Princess (03:26:28 PM): ahh, ideals
George (03:26:04 PM): yes you should!
Princess (03:26:40 PM): and we'd live where?
George (03:26:14 PM): you know I'd treat Cindi like a
queen.
George (03:26:21 PM): since you're already the princess
and all.
George (03:26:30 PM): my spot.
Princess (03:27:10 PM): where?
George (03:26:43 PM): the spot.
George (03:26:49 PM): the crib.
Princess (03:27:23 PM): elaborate, s'il vous plait
George (03:26:51 PM): the spizzle.
Princess (03:27:41 PM): we're all gonna bunk down in your
room, or what?
George (03:27:33 PM): well... I figure that if it were to
go down like that, it won't be until much later in the
year that it would be feasible...
George (03:27:34 PM): so...
Princess (03:28:24 PM): well we both know that I'm not
coming down to stay anytime soon
George (03:27:52 PM): our lease ends Oct. 1st.
George (03:28:01 PM): Crooked bashes out with Tara...
Princess (03:28:34 PM): but we ALSO both know that I do
intend to leave this place eventually
George (03:28:18 PM): then I have two rooms to fill.
George (03:28:24 PM): because I WANT to keep this house.
George (03:28:48 PM): Cindi has her own room... and
bathroom, actually...
Princess (03:29:28 PM): I'll tell you what my issues are
Princess (03:29:35 PM): you didn't work for a while, now
you've got this... job
George (03:29:05 PM): go for the gusto.
Princess (03:29:40 PM): not a career prospect
Princess (03:29:42 PM): a ... job
George (03:29:15 PM): oh here we go...
Princess (03:29:56 PM): and in my head, that just sticks
like you know, popcorn stuck in your gums or something
Princess (03:30:12 PM): and I go "Oh sure... that's real
stable and you can live forever like that..."
Princess (03:30:24 PM): and that, as they say, is that
George (03:29:57 PM): yes, because I plan to make a mad
career out of Value Village.
George (03:30:00 PM): sheeesh.
Princess (03:30:36 PM): tee hee
Princess (03:30:40 PM): hey I have a good idea
George (03:30:11 PM): oh?
Princess (03:30:50 PM): yeah
Princess (03:30:57 PM): let's fight
Princess (03:31:04 PM): it'll be fun!
George (03:30:40 PM): you want to lose again, eh?
Princess (03:31:16 PM): I think this is the type of thing
we shoudl talk about on the phone when we can actually
HEAR each other
George (03:30:49 PM): yeah.
Princess (03:31:25 PM): otherwise it's gonna get all
messed up
George (03:30:56 PM): I think so.
Princess (03:31:39 PM): sorry I brought it up right now
Princess (03:31:49 PM): can you EVER
forgive me?
George (03:31:20 PM): actually right now I'm really mad
you're belittling my job and everything... but I can't
express it right.
Princess (03:32:09 PM): I am sure that you are
Princess (03:32:15 PM): because, I pretty much am
Princess (03:32:18 PM):
Princess (03:32:20 PM): I'll shut up now
George (03:32:02 PM): whoa... and I was almost about to
hit "return" on saying I forgive you.
George (03:32:16 PM): thank God I didn't do that.
Princess (03:33:01 PM): god why AREN'T we together? We do
everything else like we are... including fight
Princess (03:33:20 PM): oh wait, that would be because of
my insane tendencies
Princess (03:34:15 PM): I guess I should just pretty much
face up to the fact that it's very likely that no one will
ever be good enough for me. If they are, I'll change my
standards so they aren't.
George (03:34:41 PM): sorry... doorbell rang.
George (03:35:32 PM): so now... where were we? Oh yeah...
I finally got a job down here after struggling for months
to do so, applying at every garbage fast food place and
everything else just so I could have an income... and...
yeah! it's not good enough.
George (03:35:35 PM): okay, proceed.
Princess (03:36:17 PM): sorry the girls came in to talk to
me
Princess (03:36:42 PM): I'm scared to death to get
involved again... because I can't imagine a relationship
without constant suspicion
George (03:36:19 PM): stupid.
George (03:36:25 PM): I mean, not you.
George (03:36:30 PM): but that's stupid.
Princess (03:37:09 PM): you are about the closest thing
that exists to my perfect personality match
Princess (03:37:22 PM): but I can't just be a smart person
and ACCEPT that
George (03:37:11 PM): I've always known that. I'd have
done NOTHING with you if there weren't some kind of deep
connection there.
George (03:37:31 PM): I'm not him.
George (03:37:34 PM): I'll never BE him.
George (03:37:37 PM): thank GOD.
George (03:37:42 PM): and that's a good thing.
George (03:37:50 PM): I'm a grown ass man.
George (03:37:54 PM): I handle mine.
Princess (03:38:40 PM): sure, YOU aren't him, just like
nobody ELSE is him
George (03:38:18 PM): that's not fair.
George (03:38:31 PM): I'm not him, nor anyone else... I'm
me.
Princess (03:39:07 PM): but *I* am all ripped to shreds
inside BECAUSE of him... and those wounds are real, even
if you and all the other men in the universe didn't
inflict them
George (03:38:50 PM): you honestly think I WON'T brandish
a shotgun to ward off teenage suitors to Cindi?
George (03:39:12 PM): I won't have shells in it...
George (03:39:15 PM): but still.
George (03:39:41 PM): I can keep them in my pocket if
things get shifty.
Princess (03:40:19 PM): I can just completely envision
myself moving down there (at some point) to start a life
with you...
George (03:39:46 PM):
Princess (03:40:23 PM): only to freak out and push you away
Princess (03:40:24 PM): and THEN what
Princess (03:40:32 PM): I'm there, and I'm still alone and
freaked out
Princess (03:40:46 PM): only I don't have my old reliable
boring life to fall back on
George (03:40:20 PM): I don't see that happening.
Princess (03:41:02 PM): that's where we differ
Princess (03:41:03 PM): I DO
Princess (03:41:10 PM): I see that happening with ANYONE I
try to get involved with
George (03:40:40 PM): that hurts my feelings.
Princess (03:41:21 PM): it has nothing to do with you
Princess (03:41:26 PM): you're just ... an accessory to my
madness
Princess (03:41:37 PM):
George (03:41:06 PM): so STOP IT!
George (03:41:08 PM): GEEZ.
Princess (03:41:45 PM): I can't
George (03:41:13 PM): quit making excuses.
George (03:42:28 PM): damnit.
Princess (03:42:38 PM): what
George (03:42:11 PM): stop making excuses.
Princess (03:42:47 PM): I was just going to say
George (03:42:16 PM): you can be happy if you want to be.
George (03:42:23 PM): stop using that damn crutch.
Princess (03:42:57 PM): that you cannot possibly imagine
how deep this is in me
Princess (03:43:00 PM): I am SCARED SHITLESS
George (03:42:29 PM): stop it!
George (03:42:40 PM): just... STOP.
Princess (03:43:19 PM): I suppose you could call it a
phobia, since a phobia is an overwhelming yet irrational
fear
Princess (03:43:29 PM): I have a phobia of being in love
again
George (03:43:09 PM): yeah, you know what?
George (03:43:12 PM): me too.
George (03:43:14 PM): goddamnit.
George (03:43:22 PM): I fear it more than anything in the
world.
George (03:43:24 PM): even spiders.
Princess (03:43:59 PM): Main Entry: pho秒ia
Pronunciation: 'fO-bE-&
Function: noun
Etymology: -phobia
Date: 1786
: an exaggerated usually inexplicable and illogical fear
of a particular object, class of objects, or situation
George (03:43:31 PM): and that's REALLY bad.
George (03:44:06 PM): I loved Mary, Jane, and Sarah... and
Sarah, with her it took a lot of coaxing and comforting to
get it out of me, and she jacked me.
Princess (03:45:00 PM): then WHY, knowing me, would you
want to risk that again??
George (03:44:28 PM): but you know what?
George (03:44:36 PM): why?
Princess (03:45:11 PM): what makes you think I wouldn't do
that? Because *I* am not sure I wouldn't, how can you be?
George (03:44:37 PM): why?
George (03:44:39 PM): what?
George (03:44:40 PM): what?
George (03:44:41 PM): nani?
George (03:44:43 PM): que?
George (03:44:44 PM): why?
George (03:44:55 PM): because I would know love again.
Princess (03:45:37 PM):
George (03:45:08 PM): even if only for a moment.
Princess (03:45:43 PM): to me love, fear and pain are all
mixed up
Princess (03:45:54 PM): I can't pick out the one without
the others anymore
George (03:45:29 PM): love IS fear and pain.
George (03:45:34 PM): that's what makes it love.
Princess (03:46:15 PM): I wish you had been there when I
was hiding behind furniture and crying and wishing I could
die
George (03:45:46 PM): love isn't all Sandra Bullock movies.
Princess (03:46:22 PM): then maybe you'd understand where
I'm coming from
George (03:45:51 PM): there are downsides too.
Princess (03:46:36 PM): love isn't supposed to be all roses
George (03:46:11 PM): you think I haven't wished for death?
Princess (03:46:46 PM): but it's not supposed to make you
want to die to escape the pain, either
George (03:46:14 PM): pleaded for it?
George (03:46:42 PM): because the clenching feeling in my
chest from knowing years of committment were just... gone?
Princess (03:47:28 PM): I felt this all DURING the
committment
George (03:47:03 PM): and all I had was some invisible
force clutching my heart and squeezing?
Princess (03:47:36 PM): getting out of it was the biggest
relief I ever felt
George (03:47:13 PM): BECAUSE IT WAS ***BARRY***
Princess (03:48:02 PM): would you sing that song to me
now, please
George (03:47:39 PM): I hate to say it (again)... but I
TRIED to tell you from the get go.
George (03:48:05 PM): if I knew the song, I would.
Princess (03:48:44 PM):
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13P
Princess (03:48:58 PM): just READ the lyrics to me and
mean it, okay?
Princess (03:49:00 PM): shit I"m going to CRY
Princess (03:49:03 PM): I can't cry we have company
George (03:48:35 PM): so don't.
George (03:48:39 PM): just know...
George (03:48:51 PM): that there are some people out there
who would never do what others have done.
George (03:49:09 PM): who'd never dream of it.
George (03:49:18 PM): in fact, who could only dream of the
chance to hold you once.
Princess (03:49:54 PM): I don't suppose you have anyone
you could send down to to break his legs, do
you?
Princess (03:49:56 PM):
George (03:49:40 PM): actually... I probably could hook
that up.
Princess (03:50:41 PM): I thought I came out relatively
unscathed until I tried to feel something
Princess (03:50:45 PM): now I'm furious
Princess (03:51:07 PM): if we were in the same place, it
might not be an issue... I don't know. I'd just go for it
and pray for the best
Princess (03:51:15 PM): but all these miles makes it all
complicated
George (03:50:42 PM): ...
George (03:51:23 PM): the fact that you're so jaded now
because of him incenses me...
George (03:52:16 PM): grrr.
Princess (04:08:37 PM): I missed you
Princess (04:08:44 PM): I'm all emotional and crap
George (04:08:18 PM): I was only gone a few minutes.
George (04:08:40 PM): well... don't be.
Princess (04:09:29 PM): well blah on you, I am
George (04:09:00 PM): why?
George (04:09:09 PM): you're the one that got deep on me.
Princess (04:09:56 PM): well it doesn't matter that I
started it...
Princess (04:10:03 PM): I'm STILL all mooshy from it
George (04:09:51 PM): You really WANT to love me, don't
you?
George (04:10:03 PM): if only it were easier?
George (04:10:10 PM): more local?
Princess (04:10:45 PM): do you really want me to answer
that right now?
Princess (04:10:48 PM):
George (04:10:14 PM): sure.
Princess (04:10:50 PM): of course I want to
Princess (04:10:56 PM): you have been here for me for
sooooooooo long
Princess (04:11:02 PM): if I could believe anyone loved
me, it would be you
George (04:10:37 PM): and I do.
George (04:10:47 PM): but I already told you that.
Princess (04:11:26 PM): I know
Princess (04:11:28 PM): and I KNOW
Princess (04:11:34 PM): but...
Princess (04:11:35 PM): argh
Princess (04:11:45 PM): you know... all that other shit we
talked about that has me all shattered
George (04:11:19 PM): why?
Princess (04:12:03 PM): didn't we just cover all this?
Princess (04:12:05 PM):
Princess (04:12:08 PM): if you were here I would try
Princess (04:12:10 PM): I really would
Princess (04:12:11 PM):
Princess (04:12:15 PM): I hope that means something
George (04:11:42 PM): but I'm not.
Princess (04:12:19 PM): I know you're not
Princess (04:12:21 PM): but I would
Princess (04:12:33 PM): but you're not here, and I'm not
there..
Princess (04:12:38 PM): so what is the point?
George (04:12:08 PM): so I'm not worth leaving someplace
you already want to leave...
Princess (04:12:51 PM): like we're going to have a long-
distance relationship for 8 years
Princess (04:12:54 PM): I'm not ready to leave yet
Princess (04:12:56 PM): I told you that
George (04:12:47 PM): I know you're financially, and
slightly mentally, ready to leave yet.
George (04:12:54 PM): but you want to.
George (04:13:05 PM): I meant NOT up there.
Princess (04:13:45 PM): I'm also taking classes to get my
certificate, I've got a job lined up (supposedly) this
fall in management
Princess (04:13:52 PM): I am working on making this a
career
Princess (04:13:57 PM): then I can do it anywhere
George (04:14:21 PM): okay then.
George (04:14:26 PM): so don't worry about it.
Princess (04:15:14 PM): about which thing am I
disregarding worry?
George (04:14:47 PM): all of it.
George (04:14:51 PM): don't worry about it.
George (04:15:17 PM): you've your reasons, then, for
staying there... and I've mine for staying here.
Princess (04:16:09 PM): can I just heave a big sigh of
frustration here?
George (04:15:42 PM): go for the gusto.
Princess (04:16:20 PM): would you like to join me?
George (04:15:56 PM): as if I wasn't doing it already.
Princess (04:16:35 PM):
Princess (04:16:43 PM): I DO want to leave, just not YET
George (04:16:24 PM): I don't want to leave here.
Princess (04:17:19 PM): gee, don't I wish I could just ask
you to wait a couple years for me?
Princess (04:17:26 PM): I hope you know I wouldn't do that
George (04:16:56 PM): going back up there for anything
more than a visit would mean my death.
George (04:17:14 PM): and I've already died once or twice.
George (04:17:18 PM): I can't do it again.
Princess (04:18:09 PM): I wasn't suggesting in the least
that you SHOULD move back
George (04:17:40 PM): I know.
George (04:18:36 PM): which is why I said... don't worry
about it.
Princess (04:19:26 PM): which is why I'm all emotional and
sad
Princess (04:19:38 PM): because life is being a big fat
bitch and I want to kick her ass
George (04:19:08 PM): I'd love it if you and Cindi were
here.
George (04:19:20 PM): but you have to do for the two of
you.
George (04:19:51 PM): sigh...
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