robertncheek

Finding Nirvana
2003-01-12 05:30:53 (UTC)

Turning a leaf...new? maybe not.

So tonite I went to SCA's Varsity vs Alumni game, which
turned out to be Alumni vs Alumni, who the hell knows why.
Not important. So anyway, I met alot of my old friends.
Alot of ppl have changed. Some wouldn't even talk to me.
Well fuck them I say.
I got to talk to Thomas H. and although he was kinda a
prick last time I spoke to him, he's not bad now. I think
we could actually be friends. Maybe good friends- he fits
the bill as far as I'm concerned. Seems loyal, really
friendly, and likes to talk. That's always good. Reminds
me of Zach from Hofstra...only less Jewish. Sorry JF1.
But he said something that struck me. To paraphrase he
said..people change- alot of times you don't even se eit
or recognize. It can be quick or over a long period. You
just have to get out of it to see it. And he's right. Life
is always changing. Things are moving. But when I look at
myself, I seem stagnant. The same horny little teenager I
was when I was 13 or 14....or 17 lol.
Sure I sau that I've changed, but a redhead with deep
green eyes and curves reverts me quickly until she could
be as dumb as a doorknob and I'd still hit it, like that
would be a problem anyway.
So, I'm wondering if Im just not able to escape to see
the change, or if things are always like they were.Just
when you need an out of body experience I guess...So in
the spirit of my last few nights of thoughts, I'm going to
attempt to turn over a new leaf, or mayb and old one. Find
that innocent, pure guy that I was before and age him a
few years. Unlike my present form, I think he'll age like
wine, not fruit; and maybe I can salvage my so-called
life. LOL, I like to thow those lil pop culture thoughts
in once in a while, throw you guys off. More later...




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